God, the ultimate (: Ning, His ambassador

2007-03-04T00:19:00.000-08:00

2007-02-27T07:34:00.000-08:00

ARGHH ! I typed such a long post just now and it doesnt show in blogger ! ARGH ! Okay nvm I shall repost it another time.

2007-02-25T22:43:00.000-08:00

Just 2 more left ! PHY AND E MATH !
I gonna do the necessary switching blogs stuff tml !
Now I needa mug PHY and do E MATH !

2007-02-19T08:11:00.000-08:00

He said, " In my distress I called to the Lord, and He answered me.From the depths of the grave I called for help, and you listened to my cry."

Jonah 2:2

I guess God is teaching me to throw all my burdens at the cross ! Leave them at the cross, cos at the back of every burden, there will always be a backdrop.

I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue

2007-02-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

I am going to ARGH soon !
8 sets of homework this cny holiday.
Common Tests on friday right after cny break
HOW HOW HOW ?!
Just as I was panicking yesterday night or rather just now as well, Holy Spirit whispered and said " DO NOT WORRY ! "
Do not worry because He is there. I gonna pray for strength wisdom knowledge and good time management as well.
If He says I can, I definitely can ! (:

2007-02-13T23:17:00.001-08:00

2 CTs DOWN ! Having more after CNY ! I needa go shopping on Thurs, or Fri or maybe Sat after service. Anyway, I just wanna say
"THANKS A LOT TO THOSE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY V DAY & THOSE WHO GAVE ME NICE SWEET PRESSIE ! "

2007-02-09T02:07:00.000-08:00

God spoke to me about His love when I was listening to this song " Till I See You". He is not just a Creator, but also a Conqueror of all things. Nothing can be too big for Him. His love lasts not only for an hour, a year, a decade or a century but His love lasts for an eternity. His love lasts forever and I know in everything He does for me, He did it out of love.

2007-02-07T07:54:00.000-08:00

God spoke to me in a very personal and intimate way through last week's sermon and QT. About His ways. Recalling about Dec 2006, where I talked about having His ways and not mine, His will and not mine, Jan 2007 was rather another my way, but God is faithful, He did not give up, and spoke to me during bus-rides, times at bus-stops, QT.May the Lord be my shepherd, to trust in His provision and care at all times. Let Jesus take the steering wheels, and I sitting at the back of the car. All I have to do is to open the doors of the car and get into the car, I don't have to question the driver which way He is going , cos' HE is the driver, where He goes, I go, which way He goes, I follow.

He is all-time faithful. Thank You Lord for Your everlasting faithfulness!

2007-02-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

God spoke to me today when I was on bus 61 on the way home from Vivo. He spoke when I was listening to a song from Hillsong. About things that I was irritated with during my Vivo shopping trip with my mum. The name of Jesus is really powerful,I had this ill feeling all of a sudden while shopping and this feeling is really bad. Obviously, it's from the devil. I started praying in tongues and I was still very very pissed with certain things until God spoke to me at the bus stop. By the way, the song that I was listening to is Came to the Rescue by Hillsong. See, when I call, He answered and He came to my rescue ! He showed me His faithfulness, even through little minor things that happen in school. Thank You Lord for Your faithfulness !

Fill me again with the power of Your spirit ,
Lord , I'm crying out for more and more of You

2007-01-31T00:52:00.000-08:00

This incident that happened touched me to tear. It happened at the bus-stop when I was being impatient cos' the bus is taking such a long time. He spoke to me.

About Him being faithful, at times when I am not faithful, He remains faithful.
At times when I feel like giving up, He never ever gave up on me.
At times where I cried out, He came to my rescue.
At times when I needed strength, He gave me strength.
At times when I am fearful, He assured me of His presence.

"If we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself " 2 Tim 2:13

2007-01-26T05:07:00.000-08:00

Well, class tests are starting next week, many tests coming up the next 2 weeks, after that will be common tests. Cant believe the school actually planned common tests on VALENTINE'S , how ARGH luh ! Was just talking to Jeslyn on msn about our sec 2 lives, we really miss 2S3 a lot , the classroom, almost everything there. No climbing of so many flights of steps in the morning, no need to cheong to toilet all the time cos' the toilet is just beside, water cooler is just a few steps away only. Canteen is only downstairs, within one minute, you will reach the canteen already. I miss sec 2 , only 7 subjects, school dismissal at 1.15 pm almost everyday

Friends, keep me in prayer if you are reading this. I need a break now. Just a 3 days break, (i know i am greedy) but yeah I know this is only just the beginning. It's okay, I must leave them all at the cross, the Lord is with me and He says I can do it ! If He says I can, I definitely can ! :D

God spoke to me today, this very powerful statement from Him reminds me of His love for us at all times.

Before I called Him mine, He already declared me as His child, His daughter, someone who He will remain faithful at all times.Think about it, how faithful our Lord is , He never fails to give me the best. Though certain things may not look good, but dont just look at the surface of things, if you just focus on the surface, you will never get to see His plan, but if you look deep, you will see a veil removed, and witness His beautiful perfect will (:

Thank you God for Your love :D

2007-01-25T01:43:00.000-08:00

Thank God , I am better now. Went back to school on Tuesday. Went for dental yesterday, now my braces are of alternate colours, purple and pink. However, the PAIN is killing me. After dental, went to Wisma with my mum cos' she insisted that I eat something, so went to food republic to eat some soft dim sum. I ate chicken porridge for the whole of today and yesterday. The school's chicken porridge is quite nice though.

Gonna take my tests next week, during week 7 common tests are starting soon. Well, I have to adapt. I know I can do it cos God said I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. If He says I can, I can ! Social Studies Mock Exam was screwed, I didnt finish writing all my points, but it's okay, what's done cant be undone, and I will leave this up to God. I guess God has been trying to teach me this very important thing. To leave my life, my studies at the cross. I cant take things in my own stride, I definitely cant. I have to learn how to throw ! THROW THROW THROW ! Well, I can say I have changed ever since 2007 started. Things change, priorities change, Wenning has changed too. I want to make my life count, it gonna be a busy year ahead. I know that this is not going to be easy, and if I really have to go through this, Lord make me stronger.

Make me stronger , Lord

2007-01-22T00:29:00.000-08:00

This is a conversation between me and God.
I am still a little worried over my SS mock exam tomorrow cos' I just started revising today.
Me: " God, how ?! tomorrow mock exam, my body like that, how to take exam ?! I havent even study yet. I missed like 2 days of lessons already ! "
God : " Trust me, remember the 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish"
Me: " HUH , but then ?!!!!!!!!!....."
Just then I saw this sentence that I wrote on memo pad that was sticked onto my wall. It was written earlier on somewhere at the 2nd or 3rd week of January.

" If God says I can, I can ! "
And God told us through Phil 4 : 13
" I can do everything through Him who gives me strength"

I am sorry for not trusting You.

2007-01-21T22:28:00.000-08:00

SICK
OH MAN, I guess you will be surprised what I am doing at home at this hour. Lessons on Monday ends at 3.15pm. I went to school happily this morning hoping that I can enjoy my monday but I began to feel really sick in the car and also during flag raising. Cant even stand properly. In the end, I was sent home to rest.

Social Studies Mock Exam
Yes, as you can see from the title, I am having social studies mock exam tomorrow and I have not studied for it. My doctor gave me a 2 day MC, so Mum said that if I am still not feeling well tomorrow, I can stay at home and rest. OH MAN, I was sick for the entire weekend and I didnt really prepare for it. Oh well, it's okay.Though I am not really prepared, Holy Spirit told me to trust God with my "five loaves of bread and two fish". I am sure the Lord has His plans. Friends, if you are reading this, do keep me in prayers alright. OH before I forget, would like to thank a couple of people who helped me this morning with my bag and stuff.
Sabrina, Kaiqi, Felicia,Cherlyn
and
Ee Suan and Melissa who came and take a look at me to see if I am okay.
Miss Seow was being very nice. She took me to the sick bay and signed the leaving school early slip for me. The other teachers came and asked if I was okay too.

OH, before I forget, I am going to tidy up this blog soon but not this week and next week. I am having some tests next week and this week is rather busy as well.

2007-01-07T22:42:00.000-08:00

Well, it seems like I have not been blogging for many days and I am a little late to talk about the new year now ! However today is the first service of the new year !

Speaking of school, hmm thank God for everything that He has done ! He gave me a couple of good and experienced teachers. I need to pray that I will not doze off during Bio lessons ! & cellmates are teaching me Bio ! ZJ, Jordan and many more offer to teach me Bio and Kare agrees to teach me Chem and Debra says I can ask her for help in Physics ! Praise God, there are always people out there to help me out and teach me plus, they are really quite good ! Yep, 2006 was a rotten year , yes a messed-up year ! & 2007 is gonna be better ! Actually I didnt really want 2007 to come that quickly but now God is beginning to show me His way, His plan ! I was fearful when I was thinking about 2007 when I was still in 2006 ! Thinking of everything that can just come into my mind, I was fearful. However, God really showed me not to be fearful through many things. I need to stand firm and I must stand firm. Thank God for many things , I prayed for many things about 2007 in school and God answered my prayers ! Hahas, Wan Xuan, it is never too late to pray that your teachers will be good in teaching, you'll never know , our God is a God of miracles remember ?! Oh and I needa say thank you to my sitting partner in class, yes Ee Suan, hahas she is nice to offer to help me take down notes cos' I will be missing my geog lessons next week due to sec 1 stuff yep. Thank God for her !

You can choose to enter this year with praise and thanksgiving or enter this year with a negative attidude. It all depends on your attidude, I guess. This sentence that was mentioned during service last week really spoke to me a lot " The greatest glory is not falling down but rising when you fall ".
Well, sec 3 life is gonna be tough and I pretty much miss my sec 1 and 2 days. Those carefree days with lessons that end at 1.15 everyday except for Tuesdays cos of assembly. Even though how busy I may be, I wanna grow even stronger in Him and spend more time with Him. Not going to list out my resolutions, gonna list them out in my xanga and I am going to cut down on the time I spend with my internet cos' God and studies are more impt and I promised the Lord that I gonna study and do my best this year ! Pray that God will give me oppurtunities to share with more people and to really enjoy Bio lessons.For people who dont know this, I dont really like Bio after all, but if it's God's will then let His will be done. No point arguing with God cos' He knows the best for me and my destiny is not in my hands but His hands.

my life's in Your hands, Lord

2006-12-25T05:38:00.000-08:00

I am kinda sick of my skin, and I am really kinda sick of this blog. Gonna find a new blog and change it into a prayer journal, gonna keep it really private, probably just my close friends and God will know about it.

Alright, enough of my grumbling, well MERRY CHRISTMAS !
Well, thinking about all that had happened in the camp and retro party ! They are indeed one of the best memories that I have had and will always be kept in my heart. Thanks all who have written me encouragement letters ! They are really great ! I am looking forward to next year's camp. School's starting soon, not really prepared, worrying about this and that, but God promised to give me hope and a future, He will provide me with things that I am not that confident that I will have. Pastor Paul mentioned this very powerful statement that struck me.

Dont ask God what He can do for you, ask yourself what you can do for God. Yes, that should be the way. Cos' God has already taken the very first step, to die on the cross for you, whether you are worthy a not, whether you believe it or not, Jesus has already died 2000 years ago on the cross. If not there wouldnt be any AD and BC !

Here I am , send me

2006-12-24T06:59:00.000-08:00

Back from YI CAMP & CHRISTMAS BASH ! Okay, Youth Impact Camp was great ! KEEP THE FAITH ! Really good ! Awesome things happened, though the devil tried to attack us but we prayed and prayer is really the most powerful weapon ! First two days were raining heavily but we prayed and prayed then next morning, IT'S A SUNNY YELLOW BANANA DAY ! Then we were playing and having fun at west coast park ! Then when I walked to the waterpoint to wash my feet, you can see that only the place where we are playing games has the bright sun shining, other places were cloudy. There was a power trip on one of the night services, then we started praying as well. We kept praying, one by one, the bulbs lighted up ! One by one ! God is great !

Christmas Bash was great ! We were all dressed up in retro clothings and it was really fun seeing your friends in polka dots, stripes and big floral prints ! (: Yep, I gonna blog another time and await for my new blog url.

2006-12-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION EVERYONE, I will not be at home for 4 days 3 nights ! cos' I AM GOING FOR CHURCH CAMP ! I really can't stand my brother, seriously I really want to give up on him, he just likes to irritate me and my parents, just because I am not doing the things that they want me to do, come on lah, they are not going to church is their own problem with God, dont try to mess around with my relationship with God, the Bible says, " For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Eph 6:12. Come on luh, if I want to give up on Him , God won't allow me to do that too, why, cos' God hasn't given up on Him, 2000 years ago, Jesus had already died on the cross for him too (:

I am seriously going to change my url soon, and I would most probably not leave the link here, it depends actually. Oh and by the way, today after going down to church to watch my brothers and sisters getting baptised, me and Annabel went shopping at Far East for our retro clothes, the other time I went with Mum , can't find anything at all, but this time round, we found our retro stuff, hahas and by the way God is the ultimate provider, I prayed and asked Him to provide me $$$ to buy the retro stuff, cos' I thought if Mum doesnt give me some $, I would be broke ! Hahas, in the end, God provided MORE THAN ENOUGH.

Another thing is that, I AM NOT PACKED YET FOR YI CAMP, tomorrow is the day already ! I have like 14 hours more to YI CAMP ! Thanks a lot to my wonderful cellmates, one who is willing to bring extra pillow for me to sleep, the other who is willing to lend me her extra pair of sandals ! PRAISE GOD !

Hahas then when me and Annabel are at Far East, we bumped into Cherie and her friend for like 5 times, 4 times in the 1st floor, once on the third floor.

Jesus, I will lift Your name up !

2006-12-16T23:07:00.000-08:00

Heyy, service was awesome today ! & I am going with Annabel tomorrow to shop for our RETRO stuff ! Hahas, oh by the way, I feel like changing my blog url soon, shall seriously consider this theultimate.blogspot.com or xanga , why cos' God is the ultimate provider, giver, creator & when you run this race , dont focus on the muscles, but focus on the ultimate, focus on what's going to happen ultimately ! You are going to stand before God ultimately.God spoke to me when we sang " You never let go ". Deep down in my heart, God knows I am disappointed with my results, God knew I wasn't very happy. As I flipped through my next year science textbook, I was so disappointed, Physics and Chemistry seem so easy to study and yet I have to combine them , Biology, the moment I flipped through the first few pages, I was thinking I am going to not make it, oh man, that feeling is horrible ! TOTALLY HORRIBLE !

Sometimes when we feel that we have set things right with God, when we have gotten over certain things, but God knows that we have yet to set things right, we have yet to surrender, to let Him take full control, not just in the car, but sitting down on the driver's seat and controlling the steering wheel. Surrender is the heart of worship. God spoke to me a lot today, really a lot, and His words really caught me into thinking , am I really letting God take full control of my life? God spoke to me, He was telling me " Wenning, triple science is not my will, double science is not my will but combined science is my will." Yes, I can choose to reason my way out, I can choose to think, wonder and regret, what will life be like if I took Pure Physics and Chemistry instead ? When I was walking home today after church, God used the things in my neighbourhood to tell me this very important message. I was waiting to cross the road and the traffic light showed a red man, so I didn't cross the road, though there weren't any cars but I hesistated about jaywalking. Then , a couple jaywalked and after they crossed the road, this car just turned right. God was telling me," Hey, if I put a traffic light there, there is a reason, there is a purpose and if you choose to be like stubborn people who jaywalked and got themselves knocked down by cars, then your life would be a mess. I put you in this combination not for nothing, if you choose to act stubbornly and choose to live by your own plan, by jaywalking, in the end you got yourself into something that is really messed up, what are you going to do? I remembered very clearly that I told God before in my prayers, before the combination results came out, I told God to put me in a class that is going to be His will, let His will be done , not my will but His will. Today, God really challenged me into thinking , if I claim to love Jesus, shldn't I allow God to work in my life, shldn't I obey Him, obey His plan ? I actually kinda regretted asking for God's will to be done for an instance after I had gotten back my results, I was rather disappointed though, but now thinking about it,if I dont want to regret it. I will fear no evil for my God is with me, not just a few days, not just a few moments, but ALL THE WAY , He is there ALL THE WAY WITH ME ! God never let go, even when I feel like letting go, God never ever let go because He loves.

"Do not be anxious about anything but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Phil 4 :6

My God will provide, He puts me in Bio, I can do it , cos' I can do everything through Him who gives me strength, if I put in efforts, I dont have to care cos' God, the Father is going to provide, He is going to provide. I may have messed up year 2006, yes I admit , I didnt do my best in studying for Term 1, Term 2, Term 3 of my sec 2 year, yet God never leaves me. Lord, let me make good use of next year, let me not mess up next year and coming years, let me not be fearful for You havent given me the spirit of fear but You have given me hope and peace, let me commit this life not just half of it , but whole of it into Your hands, for You hold our future just as You hold our hands.

" For God did not give you a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. " 2 Tim 1:7

2006-12-13T07:41:00.000-08:00

Alrights, I am glad that I can chew noodles as well, thank God for this miracle, cos' I ate noodles for lunch. Imagine 3 days without solid food ! I miss those times when I can just indulge myself in KFC cheese fries, kinder bueno, KFC 2 piece chicken meal, macs burger, daily scoop waffle and brownie, fried mars bars, fish and co's fish and chips, sakae's soft shell crab, oh mans, I am totally craving for them right now ! The doctor said I cant even bite an apple whole, I have to cut them up into smaller pieces, food that are big and chunky I have to cut them up as well. Oh wells,I sorta regret putting on braces, I mean argh it's painful, imagine extracting 4 teeth, being jabbed 8 times, oh mans ! Somemore after braces, must put retainers ! Oh man, I should have listen to my brother, dont put braces at such young age ! I should have waited until my wisdom teeth are out first ! Have to pray really hard that the wisdom teeth wont have any effect on spoiling the allignment of my teeth after I take off my braces ! Okay enough of my complains about braces, leave it up to God ! Just a few days more and I can eat solid food already, hang on there, Lord give me strength.

To sidetrack a little, I gonna go outing with Annabel to shop for some stuff , hahas quite some time since I last went out with her, I think a month ago , the four of us just went towning and we tried fried mars bars for the 1st time, hahas we are so fascinated by it cos' it is chewy, soft and yeah just nice. Hahas but now we are sick of fried mars bars already hehe (:

YI camp is nearing ! I4C, we gotta pray hard for someone ! Just as I took a break and went to the kitchen to get some drinks, Holy Spirit just whispered " YI camp coming, must pray hard for Chia Yee ! " Yes , Chia Yee, have faith in God, whatever it is, trust in the Lord, I have faith that I will see you in the day and also in the night at Fairfield Methodist ! Let's take out our most powerful weapon, prayers ! Chia Yee, you are not alone in this battle, although you maybe alone at home facing various situations that your parents may discourage you, but be assured and aware that God is with you.Ephesians 6:10-17 !

2006-12-12T20:48:00.000-08:00

Heyy, I finally put on braces already ! & I thought the colour of the brackets are purple and instead it turned out to be this purplish pinkish colour ! Today is the 3rd day since I put on braces, the first 2 days were horrible, cos' I cant eat solid food, but thank God, I kept praying and today I can eat solid food for breakfast ! Praise God ! There are only 2 ulcers on my mouth, 1 is already there before putting on braces ! Praise God ! My God is mighty to save !

2006-12-10T00:56:00.000-08:00

Okay, I sincerely apologised for the previous post that was rather crappy. Sitting down quietly and thinking of it, I am SURE that God wants me to love them just like Jesus did, imagine Jesus loves them so much that He's willing to die for them.

" And now these three remain : faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. " 1 Corinthians 13:13

I must learn how to LOVE, love them just like Jesus did. If Jesus can do it, why can't I do it too ?

2006-12-10T00:07:00.000-08:00

Dont bother to read this, okay this is the 2nd time i posted something like that, it's just pure nonsense which I really bottled up in my heart for very long and decided to vent out my frustrations here.

OKAY, oh mans, i got to set things right with a sister of mine, i mean sister in Christ, not my SISTER, okay. Alrights, I guessed it's 2 sisters instead. I dont know LAH !!!!!! RAHHHH ! SO PISSED, FRUSTRATED, DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN !!!!!! okay, I think the whole problem lies with me, I am starting to ermm not like them so much now.OH MANS, i am supposed to love people just like Jesus did, and somemore these are the people I gonna see up there in Heaven, for ETERNITY !!!
SIOW WENNING, WHAT ARE YOU DOING ?!!!!!
The first sister, is because, oh she said hurting things and yep sometimes I just feel that she is treating me not the way before. and somemore she is of higher authority.oh wells, and i dont know why, i just feel that she is treating the whole world nicer than me, okay ! arghh ! Certain things happened and she even mentioned she isnt happy with me because I did certain things wrongly. Argh ! Though some of my very nice and close sisters in Christ told me that I dont have to care what she thinks of me and if Jesus can forgive me , she will definitely forgive me. Alrights, i dont know seriously ! RAHHH ! I always thought I had gotten over it, but I hadn't okay !

Second sister, I dont know why. I am just starting to ahem, i dont know lah ! I am supposed to love her just like Jesus did, but sometimes she just doesnt want to listen to my advice. I mean I am trying to guide her, and I guessed the reason why I am feeling this way is because certain things happened and the whole issue just seemed so unfair to me ! OKAY !

I did not exactly tell God how I felt, cos' I dont know how to tell Him, not that I dont know what to tell Him , is I dont know HOW, as in I know I am supposed to love them and forgive them, cos' Jesus loves me and forgives me too, but sometimes I just feel like asking them straight on their face, what's the problem ?!

Okay, on a brighter note, yesterday was service ! & the missiontrippers are back ! & thanks I4C for the cake and card ! & thks for the beautiful strawberry hairclip ! Hahas, me and Annabel are having outing at far east to get our retro stuff ! Gosh, we gonna save $$$ ! The dress I saw at Forever 21 is $69 ! Argh ! I saw one cheaper one at far east, but the colour isnt that nice. I gonna hunt for clothes that are more practical and cheaper ! I have got to get, retro earrings, retro belts, retro clothes, aint too sure about shoes but I think I would go broke after I got the dress, belt and earrings.

2006-12-06T05:29:00.000-08:00

Hey, would like to say thanks to many people that wished me a happy b'dae on msn, friendster, calls, overseas calls and smses ! Thank you Renee, Janell, James (though it was unexpected, yes and you ought to give me a dozen of gold when you see me in Heaven), Zi Ying, Nicole, Li Lian, Helen, Shi Ying and many more ! Sorry if I had missed out anyone of you cos' wenning has short-term memory hahas.Thank God for all the surprises and pressie and nice Jap food ! and the missiontrippers are coming back tomorrow ! Can't wait to hear their testimonies ! (:

2006-12-04T01:31:00.000-08:00

God of wonders beyond our galaxy

Ok,today I gonna blog about something very interesting. You may have noticed the change in me, the change in my priorities. Some people came to me and asked me this question," Wenning, why are you so obsessed over this person called Jesus ? " Yeah, you are right, I am on fire for Him and I gonna explain and tell you why. It all starts with God's love for me. Some of you may be wondering huh what's God's love ?

I only started going to church regularly at the beginning of this year. Cos' even though for many years, I ran away from God, I ignored God, I even worship other gods before Him, but God's love for me never changes, I remembered that I am having this curved backbone problem at the beginning of this year and my mum prayed for me, we prayed together and my backbone became better, God's healing power is just so real to me, that's when I began to think more about God. God's love never changes, He loves me today just like He loves me yesterday. He loves the world so much that He has to send Jesus to die on the cross in order for us to have a relationship with Him because only through the blood of Jesus that is shed on the cross, sins are forgiven, even though He knew that we would do things that had grieved Him, He still sent His Son to die for me and you, for the world.

"For God so love the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life " John 3:16

God never leaves me nor forsakes me even though I did things that had greived Him. He came to my rescue even when He knew that I did things that had grieved Him. By God's grace, my sins are forgiven, by God's love, my life is changed, not for the worst, but for the better.

I need You Jesus to come to my rescue,
There is no other names by which I am saved,
Capture me with grace

2006-12-03T08:40:00.000-08:00

Ok, i gonna blog this very interesting thing that happened. At around 2pm in the noon, when I was using the tablet and my dad came in and asked us me to hurry and get changed to go out for lunch, so it was so hurriedly done until I just closed the cover of the pc, and when I came back home and lifted up the cover, the wireless cant seem to connect. Alrights, so I went crazy for a little while trying to restart the com and blah. Then I began to pray and after that I handed the pc over to my dad. My dad cant fix it as well , and I became really argh ! But then this sentence spoke to me, when you ask anything from God, you must have faith first ! So i decided not to care about it anymore, and when after dinner , dad tried to fix it again but cant, and so I decided to not care about it anymore, just totally surrender it to Jesus and guess what happened, the wireless was connected already ! Hahas, the more you hang on to things, the more you cant get things right, it's only when you let Jesus take the steering wheel and let God take full control , then you will begin to see His works. Amen !

2006-12-02T07:17:00.000-08:00

I have been reading the book of Luke for my QT for this past 2 weeks or so, still reading it. I guess sometimes we get too busy that we neglected that Christ is coming back. We may not know when He's coming back but we have to be prepared. I used to think that by the time Jesus comes back, I am probably like ermm in my eighties already, hahas. But I guess God's trying to tell me this very important message ! Jesus can come back anytime ! I have to be prepared everyday ! Just like spiritual attacks, everyday you will be encountering spiritual warfares, dont think that of all people, the devil wont choose to attack you, if the devil has the chance to attack you, he will take it.The devil wants to destroy you, that's what he has been trying to do all the time, not only when you are facing trials and obstacles but all the time. Just like being prepared for Christ's return, Jesus can come back anytime. He will come back at the time when you least expected.

2006-12-02T07:05:00.000-08:00

ok, I gonna post this to glorify God's name !
testimony about how powerful prayer is.

I called, You answered
And You came to my rescue

Alrights, let me tell you what happened. My ipod hanged today ! It hanged ok ! It scared me ok, so Annabel, Gracia and I prayed about it. Thanks Annabel and Gracia for praying ! & thks Xavier for fixing it ! But most importantly , thank God ! The second thing is that, today when I was at the bus-stop waiting for the bus, Mum suddenly called and asked me why I wasnt home yet, and she said that next time she gonna make me leave earlier. After I put down the phone, the immediate thing I thought of is to tell God, so after I got up the bus, I started praying all the way until I reached home. It happened last week as well and my mum made noise when I got home, even though she arrived home later than me. This time round, I was praying and crying out to God, and when I was at the pedestrian crossing, the Holy Spirit brought remembrance to what Pastor Song preached today, Abraham and Issac ! God was just trying to test Abraham, if He really wants Issac as a sacrifice, He could have created a hundreds or thousands of Issac. If you want anything from God, you need to have faith in God first ! This time round, I wasnt fearful, I kept praying and I prayed in tongues, all the way until I reached the doorstep of my house, then even when I am at the doorstep, I continued to pray until my dad heard the bell and came to open the door for me. And guess what happened? My parents didnt make any noise at all ! Thank God !

2006-11-30T19:32:00.000-08:00

I love You Jesus deep down in my heart

Oh man, what can I say about the ultimate giver, provider and creator of all things?

God's the best ! You know what, my dad bought me an ipod. I have been praying for it and though my dad grumbles about this and that, my dad was like can buy creative what, cannot meh, why must be apple leh ? ! ok the "meh " and "leh" are added by me. Dad preferred creative to apple . Yupps I have been praying for it for many weeks, and though my dad grumbled, I just kept praying, holding on. Guess what happened yesterday, we went out for lunch and out of the blue, Dad mentioned about going to the shop after lunch. I was kinda stunned. Anyway, thank God for it ! God provides and He never gives me empty promises.

I cant live a day without You, You're my King, my God, You're the one I praise

2006-11-28T20:09:00.000-08:00

Dont bother to read, it's just pure expressions cos' I am feeling down right now,

OKAY, God I really need to surrender this to You, I dont know why though I thought that I have already cheered up and be done and decided to live according to Your will but it seems like I didnt surrender it whole-heartedly to You. OH MANS ! I cant live according to my own will but yet God's will for me appeared to be different from my will. What can I say ? A friend once told me , ask God for confirmation and if that's really God's will, accept it. I tried but thinking of all that may happen, I am feeling not that confident. I dont wanna be drawn away from God, instead I wanna be closer. God, bring me up a higher level. I guess it all starts with this word FAITH . Be like Job, God took away so many things from him and yet at that point of time, he didnt say anything. He held on, he remained faithful, he choose to not give up all that he had and remained faithful. Later God rewarded him with even more things. God knew that this issue is really very important to me. He knew it, He knew that I wanted the results to be something else but cos' He loves me that's why He wanted the best for me. I really dont understand how come things turn out this way but I am sure that it is all God's will. If it is His will , it will turn out all according to His will. No matter how many times I debate with God, no matter how good my reasons are, God always give me better reasons than the reasons I gave Him. I guess I really got to pray, hold on and claim victory over this. Perhaps this is a test of faith, but I know in all things God will bless me, cos' He never forsakes me. Not going to let the devil have any chance to attack me, cos' Satan you are just a toothless lion.

& so sorry I4C, especially Mellimoo, my mum didnt want me to get out of the house today. so I cant send them off at the airport, but I gonna keep praying for them.

Lord, let my life be surrended to You wholeheartedly

really like this song a lot, cos' it really reminds me of God's mercy and to be a Christian not on the outside but in the inside.

From the inside-out

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

2006-11-28T07:55:00.000-08:00

I guess God has really been teaching me a lot of stuff through today's QT ! I want to be on FIRE for GOD ! Mission trippers are leaving for thailand tomorrow ! I want to send them off ! Gosh, and my mum doesnt really allow ! OK, I got to pray really hard ! I shall hold on until God changes the situation for good ! Keep praying ! Prayer is a very powerful weapon ! Take it out and use it !

All of a sudden, I feel like blogging about my past. Let me tell you what Siow Wenning was like before she became commited to God.

p1,p2, - cant really rmb already hahas

p3,p4 - study just because I wanted to please my parents because they like to compare between me and my brother or my cousins or rather get a sense of satisfaction

p5,p6- rebellious year, I was rude to my parents, felt like running away from home, really wondered what life's about and why am I born in this family, did things that grieved God's heart, did things that God does not want me to do, really have to thank God for being so loving, seriously I ain't worth it for Jesus to die on the cross for,but still He chose to die on the cross for me, thank you, Jesus !

Alrights, throughout my primary school and sec 1 years, I sorta backslided or rather I was extremely not interested in knowing more about God. It all started this year. God's calling was really strong. He kept calling me back. I became hungry to know more about God. Asked my mum more about church, and she told me to go church with my friends, cos' she doesnt want to go back to church yet, and so that is me. This is just the beginning of the story. I am glad to have Jesus as my Lord and Saviour !

one way Jesus, You're the only one that I could live for !

2006-11-28T01:18:00.000-08:00

Thinking about the post on 24 NOV, I am still a bit sad and unhappy over it. But I know, if I want God to use me , I have to let go of my own will,this is really called letting go of myself, letting God do it. Perhaps I may not know why He has such a plan now, but I will know it sooner or later. Why not choose to rejoice? Instead of asking God why have such a plan for me, why not ask God to use me even more mightily ? God promises me a future and to give me hope. He said that. It is written in the book of Jeremiah. My Lord doesnt give me empty promises. Yes, I am still sad, disappointed, unhappy, upset and blah. But what else can I do, but to offer this heart oh God, completely to You. I may not understand now, but He will begin to reveal and unfold His plan for me sooner or later. He holds my future just as He holds my hands. Instead of asking God why me , why it must be me, why cant it be someone else, why not thank God that it really is me ! The more fearful you are, the more you cannot grow closer to God cos' you are fearful of the tests that God is going to put you through, cos' you are afraid of going up to a higher level because you are afraid of getting hurt and encountering things that you may not like. Do not just be a Christian on the outside, but be a Christian on the inside. He looks deep into your heart, you can fool the whole world but you cant fool God cos' God looks in the inside.

Lord, consume me from the inside out

OUCH PART 2

2006-11-28T00:58:00.000-08:00

Okay, so you saw my title, ouch part 2, yes I went to pluck my 2nd tooth today. Alrights, in total I had to extract 4. OH MY ! My gosh, this time one side of my mouth felt really swollen. Oh, and I hope that the I-tunes thing is alright seriously. I have a feeling I screwed it somehow. And thanks a lot to people who smsed me to encouraged me when I was waiting for the dentist. Special thks to a person who smsed me and guess what was in the sms, a prayer ! Thks a lot ! Thanks to ppl who prayed for me ! Tomorrow is the day ! MISSION TRIPPERS ARE GOING OFF TO THAILAND ! :D Though I am not going this time, but will be praying hard for them , physically not with them but spiritually be with them, the rest of I4C pls keep them in prayers ! Btw, the jab was painful, not that painful that I would yell and run out of the room but it was painful. Really thank God that I only have 2 teeth left. (: HE IS MIGHTY & AWESOME ! The left side of my mouth seemed really numb.

2006-11-26T06:25:00.000-08:00

2 more days,
oh man, I cant believe it, I better catch up with them before they go off to thailand and I cant talk to them for 9 days.

Dear non-mission trippers in I4C, pls continue to pray for our team of 11 who are going to Khon Kaen. Pray hard for them alrights ! I am sure you received the prayer requests sheets so pray for them ok!

On the other hand, I am so disappointed with someone. Alrights, shall not mention names here, but seriously on one day the person was pointing out the things that I should not have done, but yet the person is doing it right now these days. I am extremely disappointed.

MY TOOTH HURT LIKE CRAZY

2006-11-24T05:42:00.000-08:00

OKKAY, NOW AFTER THE ANESTHETICS IS OVER, MY TOOTH HURTS LIKE CRAZY ! AHHHH ! SERIOUSLY, I CANT BELIEVE THAT I AM GOING TO GO THROUGH THIS FOR 4 TIMES ! OH MAN !

Lord, I pray You give me strength, supernatural strength to overcome this, if Jesus can conquer the grave, I can conquer this ! Reduce the amount of pain ! This is killing me argh ! I need more painkillers !

My mum and dad were totally different. My mum was nice alrights, she knew that it was painful, so she came into my room with a bowl of grapes. She was telling me that grapes are rich in iron. On the other hand, my dad is just sitting on the sofa, watching tv happily.

2006-11-24T00:32:00.000-08:00

I guess it's really His will. Maybe God's trying to teach me to learn how to accept His will, I dont know but I know He put me there for a reason. It may be a blessing in disguise. The only thing I know is, hold on to God, God is going lead me on, Lord, I pray You take my hand and lead me on, use me mightily to do Your works, guide me along this road that I am taking, grab my hand when I stumble, hold me tight, I want to follow You. As I was feeling kinda sad while waiting for the bus at the bus-stop, God is really great, Hazel called me up hahas and her words cheered me up. Trust in the Lord. I cant imagine a day without Jesus, I cant imagine what will happen, and I know God has great plans out there for me.

For I know the plans I have for You, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future - Jeremiah 29 : 11

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose - Romans 8:28

I am glad that no matter what happens, I have God with me, who will never abandon me cos He will not leave me nor forsake me. I am glad that God is with me , who knows maybe I will excel in Biology, though I seriously have no interest in that, but I know God put me to study Biology for a reason. Like what Pastor Daniel had said, there's no such thing that there is a F student, it's a matter whether you want to study a not.

OH, BY THE WAY, I EXTRACTED ONE OF MY 4 TEETH TODAY ! HEE, the injection part was okkay luh, as in I looked at the needle ok, and in my mind, I was actually repeating this line, over and over again until the whole process is over !

This line,
the line that I kept repeating over and over again in my mind

God is with me !

That's all I did, I felt God in the room, right there assuring me that it's alright ! (:

2006-11-23T06:26:00.000-08:00

I need You Jesus ! I dont know why, these days just seemed so dry as in spiritually. Perhaps because of the so many things that happened, but God really touched me very very deeply just now. As I was listening to some worship songs, I just felt God in my room, right there in my room, I just felt His presence within the room. I began to tear. Lord, I want more of You, show me Your face, let my heart be as pure as gold, let everything I do, every thought I have be subjected You, I cant imagine a day without You, I cant imagine a life without You, I cant imagine how things would turn out if You weren't there, Lord give me a second touch, bring me upon breakthroughs and breakthroughs. I really need You, Jesus. Lord, let my heart be filled with the Spirit !

Here I am, humbled by Your majesty

2006-11-22T20:37:00.000-08:00

and we will give You glory, bring You honour

OK great , now someone isnt replying my smses at all. THANKS AH ! Whatever ! & thks mr sotong for listening to me talk & scream like crazy on sunday ! thks thks thks ! Okkay, so went to visit Dr Cheng yesterday. I gonna make braces. Oh mans, Dad just happily rang up Dr Cheng and asked me to go for braces. So yesterday was the first visit, and he took photos of me and my teeth, x-rays and blah. He had to do this mould thing which is yellow in colour. & I saw the spinning machine that was used in the Life Science workshop ! Hahas, ok then he put these blue coloured stuff onto 4 of my teeth and said that I have to extract 4 of my teeth ! cos the problem is my teeth are very crowded ! and yesterday chewing was absolutely alright for me but this morning, I guess due to the chemical stuff, it was very very very , extremely painful ! Cant even chew ! God gave me nice breakfast to eat then I cant chew !!! So didnt take my breakfast, then later I was so pathetic for food, until I had to soak bread in Milo ! Thank God, at least I aint hungry now. Gosh, gotta extract my 2 teeth this friday. Oh mans, then saturday surely got all the laughing and giggling hahas from my cellmates. My next appointment is on 27 but hahas I have decided to ring them up and postpone it, cos 27 is musical evening, you cant expect me to sit down comfortably in the hall of the esplanade and then feeling painful and cannot even enjoy the musical. No way ! & I am feeling very very hungry now !!!!!!

2006-11-22T00:15:00.000-08:00

Found love beyond all reason,
You gave Your life, Your all for me
And called me Yours forever
Caught in the mercy fallout,
Found hope, found life, found all I need

God, let all the praise goes out to You, to give You praise and honour You ! God, let it be all or nothing, not just half-done, either all or nothing. I realised something that I didnt really like of myself, and perhaps God's trying to hint to me to ask me to change that bad habit of mine. God, let me give You glory and bring You honour.

On the other hand, OH MY GOSH, my teeth hurt like siao ! I CANT CHEW FOR NUTS LUH ! CANT CHEW ANYTHING AT ALL ! I guess I have to get used to eating porridge for the next few days. I asked mum if I still can have dinner on saturday and she said hmm she guessed it wouldnt be a problem luh. Lord, I pray that I can still have dinner on saturday. I am looking forward to the weekends. Hey guys if you see me toothless on saturday or sunday, pls dont laugh alrights ! Too bad, braces are like that ! What can I do?! Pray pray pray, hold on until God changes the situation around. In this case, pray and hold on until God reduces the amount of pain I am having due to my teeth. I am sure God will do something about it. Trust God not only in big things, but in small things as well ! Nothing is too big or too small for God cos' my God is mighty to save !

2006-11-20T06:21:00.000-08:00

Ok there's something wrong with my blogger, whenever I try to bold, it turned out on my blog to be unbolded ( is there such a word?). God is really great ! He is really a God of perfect timing as well. Whenever I start to doubt, I start to question and wonder, He will always appear at the right timing to assure me that He is in control. Today just as I was about to leave the house to meet Show, I had stomachache and so I was late ! Sorry Show ! Yep, and when I was crossing the road, out of the blue, my stomachache came ! Was feeling kinda bad and Holy Spirit brought me remembrance to Melissa's post about the headache. I began praying in tongues and just as I began to cry out to God, the painful feeling just went off ! My God is mighty to save ! I am glad that in every season of my life, I have God with me ! I am glad that He has assured me a life that is going to be wonderful and meaningful, He is going to prepare me to do His mighty works. I am glad that I am part of His workmanship. I am glad that I have a Father who loves me so much ! Just as I was sorta debating with God on the bus today, God never failed to explain things nicely to me and bring the message across.In my mind, I was thinking yeah perhaps sometimes it's not easy to keep your faith due to the various thoughts and stuff that are running through my mind. Then...

God said, " If Jesus can, why you cannot ! "
My response was, " Heh, but Jesus is holy, He does not have sin and He is the Messiah ! SO obviously Jesus can definitely keep the faith luh"
God said, " Jesus came down on earth as a human, whatever that you are going through, He has gone through them as well.Besides that, if John, Paul, Job, Jonah, Abraham, Noah can keep the faith, I dont see why you cannot ! They are all humans as well. They all have a sinful nature. They all are sinful men, just like you do. But they kept their faith ! "

Wow, this really hit me ! As in God really spoke to me in a way, that I totally agreed 100% with Him. I mean this is really how awesome God is ! Lord, let my life count as pure glory for Your name ! Let me do things not based on my own timing, but to follow Your timetable ! Lord, let me have more of You and lesser of me. Letting go of myself and holding onto You.

2006-11-19T06:15:00.000-08:00

Well I guess God really spoke to me a lot, through sermon, through quiet time, through prayers. I am glad that I can open more and more to God already. Whatever thing I have decided to tell God, I mean He is the one who created me, shouldnt I open up to Him ? Yesterday's sermon was great ! Had loads of fun today as well for fund-raising. Bought FOOD! Mashed potato, Prata with dog, and blah ! Oh yah and today i kana sprayed for dont know how many times. & mu en actually suggested about having zijian to stand there and he will pay about $10 to spray zijian for 30 secs. Hahas poor zijian but ahya in the end we didnt have that luh, cos we wanted a higher price ! and some ppl right, whose name shall not be mentioned, suggested me and annabel for some cheap price. Perhaps we will do that next week luh, but must get permission from whole cell luh. Yep really not in the mood to blog now, too many things in my mind already, really too many things, but what else can I do, hand them up to God, dont tell God how big those things can be, tell those things how big God is, how mighty He is to save, how loving He is. Lord, consume me from the inside out, I know You are with me even in this period, I know everything that I do, every step that I make, You will be there and when I fall, You will lift me up, let the cry of my heart oh God to bring You praise. Let me hear You so clearly, allow me to hand up those things into Your mighty hands, not just gently at the cross but to throw and let You take them all ! To be contented with what God has given me, but dont be contented of what you have with God ! Lord,let me be passionate for Your name

2006-11-17T04:07:00.000-08:00

Heyy just wanna say thanks to the people who have been praying for me, my cellmates, church friends. Went to school in the morning to get my combi results, hmm was kinda shocked and disappointed, will be praying for confirmation from God about the appealing. So sorry to the people I bad-mooded at in the morning, cos I kinda exploded because of the shocking news. I am very sorry to Jeannette, ok lah since I so mean to you in the morning, next time u go daily scoop, i treat you eat ice-cream ok ? Hahas, well God holds our future like He holds our hands. I talked to Wan Xuan about God's will this morning when I just received the combi results. Wan Xuan was telling me to pray for confirmation. I guess yeah , my life's not my own, let Lord Jesus take control. My folks are quite ok with the combi results. Like what Janell says, God's grace ! I choose to rejoice and thank God, no use brooding over it, if it is really God's will, then accept it. Perhaps this is a test of faith, perhaps this, perhaps that, but I know that God is definitely in control and He knows it all, He knows exactly.Even though sometimes Your way I cannot understand, but I'll never walk away because my future's in Your hands. Dont tell God how big those things are, tell those things how big God is. I am glad that I am created as part of God's workmanship to do His works.
Like what Eugene said in the sms, God is 100% faithful and He knows the best for us. Yeah I admit, I was quite discouraged and disappointed with it. I even questioned God why why why, but I guess it's all in His hands.

Went for backbone check up today. GREAT NEWS ! My degree is maintained !!! I can switch to night-bracing now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD ! GOD IS INDEED A HEALING GOD , A GOD OF MIRACLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANT WAIT TO GO CHUCH TOMORROW & PRAISE GOD !!! &&& SUNDAY, FUN-RAISING !!!!!!!!

2006-11-16T12:12:00.000-08:00

OK, I am blasting off the song on Audrey's blog on my speakers now. Someone send me the song ! If not I gonna buy the CD already but arghh no money !
Needa money for :
1. YI CAMP
2. my stuff ( OK, seriously this can come last, cos I think it's more worth it to buy the CD than to buy those stuff, those can come later ! )

AND,

AND,

AND,

THERE ARE JUST A FEW FEW FEW FEW MORE DAYS TO MUSICAL EVENING, FOLLOWED BY MISSION TRIP, ( MELLIMOO YAH LAH I HEARD WHAT YOU TOLD SHIYING IN MACS THAT DAY OK, I WILL GO AIRPORT SEND YOU OFF THE PLANE ) , YI CAMP, CHRISTMAS PARTY !

2006-11-16T11:52:00.000-08:00

HEHE , GOD is the BEST and will always remain the BEST !
Lord, I choose to put You bigger than tomorrow, yes tomorrow big day, 2 big results, but I gonna throw throw throw, leave it up to God, let go and let GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He said to her , " Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."
- Mark 5: 34

God, I let You take control ! I choose to think positive cos the cross is also a positive sign. God, I choose to put You bigger than tomorrow, than the 2 results !

2006-11-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

OK, I am kinda tired now, but I decided to blog. Today is a go around, then saw famliar faces day. Firstly when I was on my way to Clementi Mrt Station, I saw someone familiar on the bus, from Nissi area one luh. Next, when I was on the mrt and when the train stopped at Tiong, I saw another familiar face, also from Nissi, then when I reached Downtown East, after going to macs to buy some stuff to eat, I saw 6A ppl, I think that they are having some 6A chalet. I cant wait, I cant wait , I cant wait for Saturday and Sunday ! Saturday- SNL, Sunday- "FUN" RAISING ! but before sat and sun come, there is friday, 2 results coming out. Nvm God I choose to put You bigger than this friday, cos God, You're all of the above !

2006-11-13T23:46:00.000-08:00

God is so big, bigger than the air I breathe, so mighty, might to save, yet He is also small enough to listen to my prayer all the times. Isn't it amazing, our Heavenly Father can be so big and mighty to save and yet can be with us at all times, this shows how amazing God is ! I guess a lot of us use to think and doubt that God is with us, but we have to have this assurance in our minds that yes God is always with us , be alert and aware that He's with us at all times. Hold on to God and never give up praying. A Christian's persistence is an expression of faith that God answers prayers. Faith shouldnt die if the answers come slowly, for the delay may be God's way of working His will. When you are tired, know that God is present, always listening and always answering as well in ways that He knows the best. Hold on and keep praying until God changes that situation for good.

Be joyful, Be thankful and last but not least, Never stop praying. If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, prayers can move mountains.

This is a picture of a card which I put in my wallet now, since the previous one isnt there anymore. It acts as a reminder to always pray and never give up.

2006-11-12T23:39:00.000-08:00

gosh, so hungry now !

2006-11-12T23:30:00.000-08:00

A great song that I happen to stumble upon, when I was searching the web for something. Though some of you might not have heard this song before, but I feel that it is a great song after all.

Tree63- King

We have heard the thunder
We have seen the storm
Echoes of your kingdom coming
Rumors of our home
Where one day we will stand before you Lord
Our altogether beautiful reward

CHORUS:
And we will give you glory bring you honor
King above all kings
You deserve our everything
We will lift our voices with your praises
Jesus you are our king

Though now we walk in darkness
Though now we see in part
Right now we're warmed by the burning flames
Of the fire in our hearts
You've promised you would lead us to your throne
Where we will worship you and you alone

CHORUS

Oh man, I am craving for brownie right now ! Gotta go to the ice-cream cafe near my house to get some nice brownies.

2006-11-12T18:10:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS SUCH A FUN DAY !!! Supposedly to be fund-raising, oh wells, I guess it ended up being FUN-raising. It seems more like a fun-fair day luh. On the whole, I guess it's a fun day except the part where someone came and stole one of my cards away. That card meant a lot to me , but arghh some people just took it away without ahem telling me that they want to have it. Okkay enough of the crap, basically I woke up late and I reached at around 11 plus. Wanted to wear black in the first place, but then I wore my pink tee, then when I reached church, I was like HUH, everyone in black ! Then, zj didnt tell me to wear black luh, hahas but oh wells, nvm then. Our stall hit our targeted amount and hehe after the whole thing was done, we went to eat lunch at Beauty World hawker centre, not macs, cos there are a lot of people mugging there, so yep and we saw mellimoo, yifang,karyn, grace, gracia, yep all the best to all the people taking A's and O's ! During lunch, our food took so long to come, even Joshua's plate of roasted duck rice, Noel and Zj's thai food,Yun Mei's bowl of sliced fish mee sua came, then the Annabel, Shi Ying and I are still waiting for our curry rice. Okkay we talked a lot during lunch, until I didnt get to finish my food cos I laughed and talked until I was too full to finish my food already.

2006-11-09T20:24:00.000-08:00

ARGHH, I NEED HELP FOR CHINESE HOMEWORK ! THE ZUO WEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEH HOW TO WRITE??????!!!!! SHAN LIANG DE CHOU BA GUAI ?!!!! Spoke to God this morning when I just woke up,still clad in my pyjamas, wrapped around in my quilt, didnt bother to switch off the air-con. Talked to God , let Him take it all !

I need You Jesus to come to my rescue,
Where else can I go,
There's no other name by which I am saved.
Capture me with grace,
I will follow You.

2006-11-09T06:27:00.000-08:00

What can I say about God ?! Absolutely the BEST ! God told me that I should not look at people in my own point of view, but Jesus's point of view. Jesus loves every single one , some persecuted Him, some disagree with Him, did He complain? Did He tell the Father that since those people do not agree with Him, He shouldnt die on the cross for them? NO, He didnt. He still chose to die for those people. God has been really a great Father, not just only a great and loving Father but also a very good, friend, a best friend I would say. God accepts me for who I am , yet is changing me to become a better person. I am glad that God gave me a second touch. and now I realised why God put me in Crescent, cos Crescent is the place where He is going to use Christians friends around me to help me along in my walk with Him, show me the strong faith they have for Him.If Abraham,Noah,Job can have such strong faith in God, we can do it as well. I really thank God that He put me in Crescent cos everything that He is doing, is part of His will. God's plan is just so amazing, so perfect, that I could barely use words to describe it. I am glad that I am part of His workmanship and I am in His beautiful perfect will. God really spoke to me a lot during my QT these few days, really thank God for everything. God, I am glad that I have You to take my hand and lead me on to run this race. Even when I fall, You're always there with open arms to pick me up.

2006-11-08T03:57:00.000-08:00

Heyy, feeling so arghh right now, cos I just did something that I should not have done ! Anyway, feeling so sick of blogger now, feel like switching to xanga, but I am too stupid for xanga,referring to the template part luh, I mean the skins part, I just couldnt get the thing to appear on my webpage. Ho Zi Ying, where are you ?! Need your help !!! Hahas & I decided to take up the challenge to walk from Ps all the way to Marina Square.

2006-11-07T21:56:00.000-08:00

Rain down on me,
Rain down on me ,
God, I want to be Your reflector ! Yes, though I am currently facing a lot of situations right now. But even when I fall , there will always be open arms to hold me. cos the Father will lift me up when I fall!
Thank God for NLT Life Application Bible, really learnt a lot through the double-edged sword ! once a child of God, always remain a child of God no matter what.

Just to share a bit of what happened this morning, God is just amazing ! Okkay, so yesterday I was really tired, and I was praying and blah, and then I dont know I think I got too tired and I unconciously went to sleep without finishing what I wanna tell God. This morning, after I just woke up, I realised something was wrong. I didnt recall finishing my prayer for yesterday night. Didnt carry out any actions, just went to brush my teeth and got ready to get out of my house to take bus. But I was thinking that heyy seriously something is not right, and I actually thought that my lesson is starting at 8.15,so i stared at the clock 7.30, but I just couldnt pretend that nothing happened. So I didnt really want to care about the time, dont wanna think about what will happen if I am late or whatever, I just sat down on my bed and started talking to God , told Him all the stuff that I am thinking about these few days, until 7.40, when I was thinking hmm I will probably just go to the main road and flagged a cab luh. However after I left my house, I dont know, I guess it's Holy Spirit luh, I just walked to the bus-stop and waited, waited for quite some time, not very long, just as I began to get impatient and before I could complain to God about the bus, the bus arrived. As you see, I have to change buses to go to Crescent,so as I walked to the tanglin bus-stop, I was waiting for the bus 111 and the bus arrived shortly. And guess what, just as I was about to reach school, I saw my friends and they told me that they were pretty sure that class's starting at 8.30. Therefore, I was only one minute late and when I arrived at the lab, the lessons had not even started yet. How awesome God is ! His timing is always the most accurate one, He chose to let me see that hey His power is definitely mighty to save, just at the point of time when I was about to ask God why He chose to put me into certain situations, and He chose to show me how mighty He is.

2006-11-06T01:21:00.000-08:00

perhaps perhaps perhaps, I ain't sure of certain things but I'm sure God is in control, what else can I do but to let Him take charge and surrender it to Him luh. Letting go of myself and letting Him do it ! Really appreciated the NLT Life Application Bible.

"We can rejoice , too when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance.And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.And this hope will not lead to disappointment.For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love." Romans 5:3-5 NLT

Yes, instead of telling and asking God, why why does God put me in certain situations which I dont like to face, why not tell God, "God, I choose to rejoice and thank You for putting me through, cos I know whatever that You put me through, You are moulding and refining that diamond ore into a diamond, accepting me for who I am, but making me a better person as well.I choose to praise You and to hand it up to You completely.Dont tell God how tough it is for you to face certain situations that you dont like but tell those situations how big God is and He is mighty to save. God I want to pass this test.Lord, You take my hand and lead me on."

And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise,from the inside out,Lord my soul cries out

2006-11-06T01:08:00.000-08:00

Heyy, I have been posting on another site recently , so I guess I will be back really soon. Yep.

2006-11-03T19:21:00.000-08:00

WOW, my God not only saves but He provides as well ! What can I say about God ?! The king of all kings ! I was praying that God, give me an ipod if it's part of Your will, if not Your will then dont let me have it. I told Him that provide the money as well and God is really great ! I asked my dad about it , though my dad doesnt really like ipod, he prefers creative luh but hahas he is giving me $200 for it and the rest I'll top up myself ! Hahas, never mind, I am sure God will provide the rest of the money. Just like YI camp, I prayed before I asked my mum alright, then I told God to provide the money and hehe my mum agreed to sponsor me the money !!! No matter how much I give it to God every week for tithe, I know my Heavenly Father will reward me with more things. God is the ultimate giver of all things, if you are willing to give it to God, God will open the floodgates of Heaven and pour out more blessings on you. God, I thank You for being my ultimate provider and giver !

Video or Nano ? Black or red ? Ask Him.He knows the best !

2006-10-31T23:52:00.000-08:00

SIOW WENNING IS CURRENTLY CRAVING FOR FRIED MARS BARS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUTTTT,unfortunately I cant eat them now, cos I am sick. Arghhh !!! God, I needa recover quick !!! I wanna praise and worship You properly !!!!!!! That's something I disliked when I get my windpipe infected, like heh it aint funny,it's irritating. Imagine all the good food being placed on the table and I cant even eat them. Fried mars bars !!!!!!!!!!!!! Chocolates !!!!! Macs !!!! Mos burger!!!!! KFC 2 piece chicken meal !!!!!!! Cheese fries !!!!!!!!! Pattaya's roti prata !!!!!!!!!! cant even go KAP ! ryan's Willy Wonka chocolate !!!!!!!! As I was beginning to cry out to God, what can I say,it's all about patience, remember the Fruits of the Spirit ?!

Philippians 4:6-8 !

2006-10-31T07:29:00.000-08:00

Went out to town with Ho Zi Ying, Annabel and Celine. I love the fried mars bar though I only a small bite. I needa get well soon ! Rely on God's strength ! God really spoke to me through this verse this morning as I was reading my Bible before I left my house.

1 Thessalonians 1:5
"because our gospel came to you not simply with words but also with power,with the Holy Spirit and with deep conviction"

I shall blog more tml, really tired now and I am off to do my QT ! so tada !

2006-10-29T20:59:00.000-08:00

Heyy, my blogger's kind of conky yesterday. Arghh, I am sick. Hmm, nvm like what I told sister that we must rely on God's strength and also to praise & thk God in all situations. Heyy sis if you are reading this, this is to remind you huh to be strong in your walk alright. Like come on luh, we must stand firm, remember Eph 6:10-17? Does that sound familiar? Trust in the Lord and I'm sure God will add unto you cos God is great and His praise fills the earth, fills the heaven ! Anyways,may consider switching to xanga since I am kind of sick with blogger. I hope that mum allows me to go out with Ho ziying and Annabel tml. The last time I went out with the both of them was like somewhere after mye.

2006-10-29T05:16:00.000-08:00

Thks Zenna for sending me the song.& Eugene, I guess I will print or write out the lyrics for you luh. May God bless my brothers and sisters who are taking their O's & A's this week. People, remember God is always with you, by your side in every season of your life. God is faithful to His children, no matter how difficult or easy the paper is, take the paper in faith&leave up your stress, worries and fears all up into His hands, acknowledge that God is with you, rely on His strength not based on your own understanding and abilities ! Guys, jiayou & I'm sure through this period of examinations, God will bring you to a higher level. Remember you study not because other people are studying, you study because you want to honour our Heavenly Father with your results !

" Blessed are those whose strength is in You, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage "
Psalms 84:5

2006-10-29T01:35:00.000-08:00

Heyy, had walkathon in yesterday morning. Had to reach church at 6.30am in the morning but Dad drove me to church.We went back to church at about 11 plus. Went home to shower and Dad drove me to church.Thank God ! Anyway I am the person breaking the ice and we played dog and bone.I4C girls are all watching GOONG ! KIM JEONG HOON ! Hahas ! Sitting beside Alex during service was fun hahas, dont ask me why, cos Alex and I can totally crack jokes ! Gosh, my mum is mad about GOONG ! She was watching from Thursday night, Friday, Saturday and now she is still watching GOONG ! My mum even snatched the tv from me. Arghh !

Show me Your face God, I wanna know You more, draw me closer to You ! Only You can love me like no one else ! I will run to You !

2006-10-26T23:20:00.000-07:00

ARGHH I FEEL LIKE PUTTING PASSWORD IN MY BLOG !!! SERIOUSLY I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA PUT A PASSWORD IN MY BLOG ! I AM SERIOUS !

ARGHH, SUPER IRRITATED RIGHT NOW! ARGHHH! ARGHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!! CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

This is a post dedicated to my beloved class ! Yes, I know this is the second post dedicated to the class already but I am being very emo now so I won't elaborate ! Just wanna thank

Constance- for the pretty blue letter that you wrote for me! Really touched !

Derede- the wonderful nice note written in chinese& the marble

Vanessa- the beautifully written note & the marshmallow

Celine Teo- for the marshmallows

Shixuan- for the lovely note and the sweets

The following is going to be a para to my sitting partner
Melanie- thks for the really nice thing that you have said in your blog & also the note that you have written ! Just wanna tell u that thanks a lot for being such a great partner to tolerate my siao-cha-bo ness, crap, nonsensical behaviour at times, my almost-every-month mood swings. Thanks a lot for your Adam Khoo-like scoldings ! I will definitely remember those days when you sat beside me. I still remember that we used to quarrel a lot when we are in sec 1, cos we just seem to be unhappy about each other. AHYA, as you see I'm crazy one mah in sec 1. At the beginning of this year, we were still quarrelling somehow, hehe dont ask me why, it's over trivial things like, because you press the keyboard too hard or something like that, it's pure dumb luh seriously, but can you imagine i was so crazy to kick up a big fuss about it ?! Hahas ! Anyways, really just wanna thank you for being such a great partner ! Actually sitting beside you is good cos you helped me a lot with my studies and also you made me proud of my voice now , last time I dont even dare to sing in front of classmates, but after I sat with you, you sang and hahas it sorta influenced me to like singing as well, so now i like singing leh. Hehe. & sitting beside you gives me free entertainment cos you sing well, i mean not that i am trying to "pai ma pi" but seriously your singing is good & i really look forward to the day when I tune in to radios or tv shows, and the media is advertising for your debut album! really a frutiful and great time sitting beside you & I will never forget this name" MELANIE "

I shant elaborate too much now cos I'm really gonna cry soon but really a word of appreciation, to each and everyone of 1S3'05/2S3'06

Hazel, Celine Teo, Jeslyn Cheah, Cheryl, Shiny, Wushuang, Constance, Derede, Kailin,Wanxuan,Fangying,Xing Juan,Ho Zi Ying,Jeslyn Lee,Jolena,Cheng Yee, Vanessa,Huiwei,Ying Min,Xin Shyan,Lye Zi Ying,Yejing,Mayvin,Swee Chen,Brenda,Nicole,Denise,Melanie,Hui Ching,Shauna,Candice,Jeannette,Ruyi,Celine Tay,Shixuan,Tseng Yi,Valerie,Laura and last but not least Bernice

You will always be a part of my memories, memories that do not come and go as wind,memories that will not be washed away by rain but will be remained and kept in my heart. Thank you really much for making my lower secondary school life so wonderful and it wouldnt have been complete without anyone of you !

Not forgetting Chen Lao Shi and Miss Seow, I will miss Chen Lao Shi's chinese lessons and her ppt and also Miss Seow's sweety treats and also her strawberry shortcake powerpoint slides.

Recalling back to the days when we are still sec 1, when we first entered 1S3'05, we were supposed to cheer for this cheerleading competition. It brought me to remembrance of this cheer.

Strawberry Shortcake
Blueberry Pie
S3, S3 fight fight fight
Vanilla Ice-cream
Ice Lemon Tea
S3,S3 VICTORY

Together we stand as tall,together we rise and fall, united we stand, divided we fall,together we are the one and only 1S3'05,2S3'06 !

2006-10-25T16:07:00.000-07:00

Hey we had sorta a farewell thingy today. Oh my, I seriously feel like crying now. SERIOUSLY.This post is dedicated to my beloved class, 1S3'05/2S3'06 !!!

THANK YOU REALLY MUCH FOR THE EFFORTS PUT IN THE VIDEOS, THE SONGS, THE CARDS, THE FLOWERS, THE SCROLL THINGY !!! I really wanna thank the whole class for this very memorable 2 years that I had in lower secondary. WIthout anyone of you, 1S3'05/2S3'06 wouldn't have been complete. United we stand, divided we fall, the tears, the sadness, the joy, the happiness, together we are 1S3'05/2S3'06!

Guys, it wouldn't have been such a great, memorabe, enjoyable and fun 2 years without you people! It has been really a great pleasure knowing you people and as you all know I am not one who is good with my words. Just wanna tell you all, I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1S3'05/2S3'06
WE WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST OF THE BEST !!!

2006-10-24T13:35:00.000-07:00

I am seriously in love with the current song which I am tuning to now ! FROM GOD ABOVE !!! & good news is I gonna learn guitar from my cellmates ! I hope that I wont drop halfway. That was what happened for piano ! ARGHH ! I needa find someone to accompany me to Musical Evening ! RENEE, pls go with me!!! I haven't gone to such a formal concert thing with her. I dont mind going with VERA !!! I gonna go towning one day. Haven't been towning these days. Gotta wake up early on Saturday morning, reaching church at 6.30 AM, to go for the walkathon. Thanks Grace for your t-shirt ! & after that we gonna fly kites or play captain's ball or bowling, depends on my cell, then going back to church for icebreakers then go for service ! By the way, this year's Christmas theme is RETRO !!! Hahas I know of a place where I can get retro stuff. & thank God, my mum had no objections for me to go for YI camp !!! & God provided me a way out for my $65!!!

2006-10-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

Heyy submitted my combi form alr ! Dont talk to me about it , I just wanna leave it up to God !!! LET GO AND LET GOD DO IT !!! Thanks EUG THE CHANG-E for ur sms when I told him that I would be fasting on friday ! Hahas ! John 13 & 14 !!! Let Lord take control of the situation ! I really don't know how many people are choosing the same combi as me as first choice but the only thing I know is that I have to leave it up to God !!! Lord, it's just so great to be loved by You ! Bless me with lyrics on how to write sweet songs for You ! I cant imagine 1S3'05/2S3'06 is separating in 2 days' time. I almost cried today when I heard the song "Graduation" being played. Thank God for friends in this class ! I ran out of words to describe how I am feeling now but really thank God for putting me in this class ! Thanks KARE for providing me with info and also that sms that she texted me, telling me that she is keeping me in your prayers! AWW, so TOUCHED! & last but not least, I have to thank MISS ALEXANDRA & also RENEE my dearies for giving me so much info ! Yes, ALEX I OWE YOU SOMETHING, I KNOW !

2006-10-18T21:55:00.000-07:00

Heyy, got back my results today. It's kinda ok luh, at least I improved. Told SISTER about it, and SISTER happily goes, it's not easy to impress me. Gosh, how nice huh SISTER ! ALL THE GLORY GOES TO GOD !!! I was very surprised when I saw my Science results. I mean really , if not for God , I wouldn't have done it ! It's just so amazing how God is , how awesome our Heavenly Father is !!! I LOVE YOU, MY LORD !! God is really a God of miracles. He gives us hope ! Worry isnt what He has assured us but Hope is what He has been telling His children all the while. God, I really dont know how to express the feeling that I am feeling right now but God, it's just so great that I came back to You.Thinking of what I have been the past few years, hahas I am really wondering what I am doing for the past few years. All I am is Yours, yeah God, all I have now is all from You! God, You are the best !!! The best of the best !!! God, I wanna write more songs to praise You. LORD, BLESS ME WITH GOOD LYRICS !!!

2006-10-18T07:18:00.000-07:00

Gosh, God I cant stand my parents luh, especially my irritating brother ! It's so infuriating luh. Eh, come on luh, if you guys are not happy with my results even though I improved, then I really got nothing to say luh. I mean come on luh, so what if my brother takes triple, hurhurhurs, I've got friends out there who dont take triple but in the end, they scored well in their O's. Come on luh, my mum even said more discouraging things, she said that she expected me to go into polytechnic. You know how infuriating it is, come on luh, saying that I dont have a great future, thinking that that's the end of the world. Please luh, the whole world may think that I dont have a good future, that's the end of the world, but God promises me a future with plans to prosper me.

" For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29 : 11

Come on luh, God promises me a future, He promises to give me what He plans out for me, His beautiful perfect plan, He will never ever shortchanged me no matter what. At times where I am tired, where supposedly there were supposed to have 2 sets of footprints, He carried me through, He lifted me up when I fell , He encouraged me when I was discouraged, He loves me so much that He gave His one and only Son to die for me. Come on luh, it's clearly written in Jeremiah, God promises me a future , plans to prosper me and not harm me. Why cant my parents understand that?! Lord, teach me how to reach out to them , how to bring them back to church, how to bring them back to You.

2006-10-17T04:17:00.000-07:00

Heyy, got back HCL and History today. Had a great time talking to God when I got home.I thank God for showing me how much I really had to depend on Him. I have to rely on His strength and not based on my own understanding and abilities.Yes although you may think huh can wenning stop being so naggy and kept mentioning not based on own understanding and abilities but you have to depend on God , hand your life up to Him !

" If you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer "
Matthew 21:22

SIANNNNN, GOSHHH, SOMEBODY'S NOT PICKING UP MY CALLS. I GONNA KILL THAT PERSON LUH ! DAO!!!

2006-10-16T04:04:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHH !!! so pissed !!! PISSED PISSED PISSED !!! ARGHHH !!! SO TEMPTED TO THROW THINGS RIGHT NOW !!!

Anyway on a brighter side, thk God that
I live near church.I am part of His creation.I am His mouthpiece.I gonna tell the world about Him.I gonna dedicate more songs to Him.He blessed me with wisdom on how to write the lyrcis properly.

There are just simply so many things to thank God for. How awesome our God is ! I gonna hurry finish my maths homework so that I can hurry and get myself into the writing lyrics mood, but most importantly I am writing that song for God, all for God !!! God is really so great ! He showed me that I really have to depend on His strength !

" Blessed are those whose strength is in You, whose heart is set on pilgrimage " Psalms 84:5

2006-10-15T14:14:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, I woke up at 11 plus this morning. I can't believe that I slept for 11 hours. Gosh ! Anyways yesterday's sermon was great ! Shi ying and Adrian came !!! Gracia brought her sister ! Anyway, I gonna blog about what I wrote this morning. It was supposed to be a song, but on a second thought it's kinda long , so I guess that I will edit it some time later.

It's just so great to sing for You

To praise You
Is a blessing to me
To worship You
Is a joy for me
To You, our King
Our Heavenly Father
It's just so great to sing for You

To love You
From deep down my heart
To live for You
Brings glory to You
To You, our King
Our Heavenly Father
It's just so great to sing for You

To sing You
A song of worship
To honour You
Means pleasure to me
To You, our King
Our Heavenly Father
It's just so great to sing for You

I wanna be
Just where You are
I wanna feel
Your presence intensely
I wanna go
Where You sent me

To You , our King
Our Heavenly Father
Lord, it's just so great
To sing for You

To You, my God
Our Lord Almighty
To love You
To worship You
To honour You
To praise You

Lord, it's just so great to sing for You

2006-10-14T00:37:00.000-07:00

Heyy, cell group 's starting in about an hour's time ! Thank God that I live near church ! Thank God for loving me so much ! Read Acts 4 this morning, God really spoke to me a lot. He wants us to reach out to the people out there, in the world, be it Crescent, be it my neighbourhood, be it places out of Singapore. Peter and John shared the gospel in in spite of being fearful of the the high priests and Sadducees. Courage is not the absence of fear. You may be fearful but courage is doing something in spite of being fearful. Though my parents are currently not going to church for fellowshipping, though my mum stopped going to church for a while when she was pregnant with me cos of all the vomitting and stuff, after she went back to church, her cellmates were all different and she did not know anyone there so she stopped attending church, though sometimes I may think that it's my fault but God's grace is always just nice, He will not give You more than enough or less than expected. He will only give you what you need ! He whispered to me that yes, maybe i may think that it's my fault, and since God already knew that my mum will stop going to church because she was pregnant with me but He sill wants to put me in this family cos He wants to test my mother's faith for Him and He is going to use me to bring my family back to church. Dont do things your own way, based on your own understanding and ability but do things using God's method ! God, I'm so deeply embraced by You !

This is one of my favourite praise song by Planetshakers !

Running after You

Your word is a light unto my path
Your love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's in Your hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Cos I'm running after You

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Cos I'm running after You
Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after You
It's You I'm following today
I'm running after You

I'm running after You

Yes, Jesus I'm running after You !

"My soul glorifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God, my saviour "
Luke 1:47

2006-10-13T22:11:00.000-07:00

Recaps

Tuesday & Wednesday

Went over to sleep at Celine's house. Gosh my mum's being so crazy, at first she doesn't let me go Celine's house, arghh such a long story. Had loads of fun. Thanks for the ride Celine! Help me thank your mum also. Hahas we went to her house, they help me tie two ponytails. After that, we watched Land of the Dead. Ahhh, I was so horrified when I saw the gross part about eating their intestines.After watching that, we watched Chinese cartoon. It was midnight already and we were still kinda energetic, so we decided to sing k.Sang till around 4am in the morning and we decided to sleep. Woke up at 5am and Shiny woke up cos of her alarm. Then went back to sleep and finally woke up at 8.30am. After washing up, we went to the market with Celine and her mum. Her mum treated us breakfast ! & we bought the ingredients for the bbq.Went back and watch movie.We watched Shuttle and thanks Shiny for prompting me which are the scary parts, so that I would be prepared to close my eyes. Hahas we played card games like Old Maid and Cheat ! For the highlight of the day " BARBEQUE". Melanie came in the afternoon, followed by Swee Chen, then Ho Zi Ying then Jeannette. Hahas we had a lot of fun cooking the food. & hahas zi ying was telling me to be more efficent in serving the food.& after the bqrbeque, we decided to sing k again !!! Sang ren wo ao you, zuo tian wo shi wu shui ,SHE songs and many more ! After that, cabbed home with Jeannette.

Thursday
Dad was sick and he told me last minute that he cant fetch me.So me and jeannette had to cabbed to school if not we will be late.Arghh was kinda pissed off at first that my dad didnt give me prior notice.Went to school for interhouse games.I played wipeout instead of powerball, though my team was supposed to play powerball.Went to meet Tiong with Celine to buy her choir stuff. Then met Debs to go Harbourfront. Her mum came and I left. Zenna was stunned when she saw me, she was like " HUH , why are you here?!". Hahas here comes the funny part, I thought I saw someone familiar, really familiar. Immediately called to ask about it but I heard that I got the wrong person, so hmm forget it then.

Today
Was late for school today.Cos dad couldnt fetch me & i had to take bus. Chen Lao Shi boarded 111 and hahas she saw me and sat beside me, but she was talking to Miss Saifa throughout the whole bus-ride.School was dismissed at 12pm cos of the Sec 4s Farewell Assembly.Went home to meet Debs at Borders. I happily showed her what she could buy for me for my birthday. Went to Vivo after that then went back to town again. Stopped at KFC for my cheese fries.

Church tomorrow. Cant wait for church tomorrow. Gonna praise God in the House of God !!! & SHIYING is COMING !!! Praise God !!! Meeting Rachel and the rest at Westmall to have lunch first then we are going church together.Anyway, I saw Mic Bay at somewhere near my house. Wanted to say hi but dont think that she recognises me so ahhhyaa forget it then.

2006-10-10T22:32:00.000-07:00

HEYYYYYYS !!! YES PEOPLE I AM BACK FINALLY AFTER MY FYE'S HIATUS !!! YESSSS , SIOW WENNING IS BACK!!!

Paper ended at 10.30 today.Celine teo , Derede and me went home to get changed and met at ps. We wanna eat kimchi at first but it's too crowded so we changed to pasta mania. Derede's recommendation is good. The Chicken Bolognese tastes great! Yupps, before getting out of my house, chatted with Debs for a while. Hahas she gonna go shop Vivo City. Ahhh, talking about Vivo City reminds me of Marina Square. Ahhh, Debs,let's go Marina Square one day. Bought a few pair of earrings and a pair of shoes from Bugis today. Saw this pair of shoes, it's totally LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.Tried on it but dont think Mum would want me to buy it so I didnt buy. Then after that Celine asked me to try on it, told her that I tried already, then decided to call my mum. In the first place, my mum said that I have to pay myself and the price is $29.90. Then after that is $27. So i texted my mum again, she didnt reply. A few hours later, she said that she will share the price with me. The three of us hurried back to the shop and the person was like kinda shocked. She was like " EH". Hahas then they didnt have my size, so they asked me to take the display set, but I was rather reluctant so I dont really want it anymore.Then the boss was like speaking in Chinese to me saying that " Can tell that you like this pair of shoes a lot, that's why you came back !" & I was like " yah yah you're right" then this time after she reduced the price to $23.90. YESSS !!! Thank God !!! Praise God for blessing me with this pair of shoes. I gonna wear them on Saturday !!! Cant imagine that I went to shop for clothes but in the end , I didnt buy any boutique. Hahas anyway, I didnt spend a lot today also partly because I am intending to drag my mum to Bugis one of these days and she will pay for all. Hahas. Going Celine Teo's house to sleepover tomorrow ! Woohoo ! We gonna play throughout the night ! SISTER STILL SO BU YAO LIAN, GO MENTION DUMB STUFF ON HER BLOG !!! EEEEEYYYYERRR !!! SO YUCKSSSS !!! Hahas, and u know what , after reading Celine's sms & I almost laughed till my jaw dropped. Melanie said that the night isnt going to be fun without me sleeping over. So i happily told my mum & my mum was like ok luh ok luh. Hahas MEL , thks ah !!!

2006-10-09T18:56:00.000-07:00

Good morning everyone ! I dreamt of something which I think God is trying to tell me! I dont know actually. The dream was about the relationship between me and my mum , it got really back and many things happen, and I woke up crying. I dont know why but I just woke up crying and crying. God is really very great ! You know what, yesterday I didnt finish a 2 mark question, which I knew how to do it but when I wanted to write down the answer, Chen lao shi said" Time's up" !!! ARGHHHHHH, at first I was very very pissed off.I sorta asked God why is this happening but God is so nice, He sent Christians friends to call me and talk to me. After that, I was talking to God on the bus, telling Him that I am very sorry for putting that 2 mark question as priority for that instance, but there is some abruptions so I continued my talk with God at home!!! God is so good, He blessed me so much ! Thank God for His love, His blessings upon me ! Let me give you a brief explanantion on what I really am before I became committed. I did things that God didnt want me to do, I didnt obey the 10 commandments , I broke God's heart many many times, I took almost everything that God has given me for granted. For 7 years, I have ignored God. I mean for 7 years or even more than that, I was a person wallowing in self-depression as I always get pissed off with trivial matters. BUT WOW !!! I mean GOD is really very great ! He touched me so deeply this year that I decided to be committed !!! Chrisitanity isnt so much of a religion but it is most importantly a relationship with God !!! GOD, YOU 'RE SO GREAT !!!!!!!! I JUST WANNA PRAISE YOU!YOU'VE TURNED MY MOURNING INTO DANCING, YOU'VE TURNED MY SORROWS INTO JOY!

Father, I just wanna thank You for blessing me with strength and wisdom for the papers ! I wanna rely on Your strength, not based on my own understanding and strength but based on Yours. Thank You Lord for lifting me up when I fall, cos I know I always see 2 sets of footprints, but when I see only 1 set of footprints, that's when You carried me through.Amen!

I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I'll stand my soul Lord to You surrended
All I'm is Yours

2006-10-09T02:22:00.000-07:00

The Stand

You stood before creation
Eternity in Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
And carried the cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So I'll walk upon salvation,
Your spirit alive in me,
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what could I say,
And what could I do
But offer this heart Oh God,
Completely to You

I'll stand ,
With arms high and hearts abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I'll stand ,
My soul Lord to You surrended
All I'm is Yours

God, it's just amazing how much love You have poured out for us
" For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life " John 3:16
Lord , I just wanna thank You for the cross

2006-09-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

THE FOLLOWING IS A QUIZ THAT Mrs Dumbie tagged me to do !!!

001.Real name- Wenning
002.Nickname- uncountable, too many alr. for eg, honeydew milkshake( the latest one ),NING, AH SIOW !!!
003.Single or taken- SINGLE AND UNAVAILABLE
004.Zodiac sign- Sagitarius
005.Male or female- DUHHHH
006.loves taking pics- YUPP, depending on the shirt that i'm wearing
007.Ipod- CREATIVE LUH
008.How many buddies on your list?- too many to be countable
009.Friendster name- WENNING siow
010.Hair colour- black and perhaps a few streaks of brown?
011.Hair long or short- short , cos short hair suits me better hahas
012.Eye colour- BLACK LUH, if not purple ah , hahas
013.Are you a health freak?- hahas so sorry, i dont think so
014. Height- 160
015.Do you have a crush on someone?- currently nope
016.Do you like yourself?-hahas yep
017.Braces- gonna get them this NOV/DEC
018.Think you are awesome?- hahas what do you think huh?!
019.Piercings-my ears
020.Tattoo- NO & NEVER

Your "Firsts"

021.Surgery- NOPE, dont think so
022.First piercing- JULY when i pierced my ears
023.Best friends- too many to count alr, for eg,SISTER, & many many many more good friends
024.First award- p1/2, cant rmb alr
025.First sport you joined-AHHAHAS TOTALLY CANT RMB LUH, swimming ?
026.First pet- cat
027.First vacation-K2/P1, cant rmb alr
028.First concert- P4,PURPLE SKIES
029.First love- HAHAHAHAHAS, MY KINDERGARTEN FRIEND I THINK
030.Favourite movie- Hurs, i thought this is supposed to be my "Firsts", but anyway
CHARLIE&THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY, HP SERIES, & MANY MORE
031.Favourite tv shows- PROJECT RUNWAY (:, AMAZING RACE, quite a lot
032.Colour- A LOT OF THEM
033.Music- UNCOUNTABLE
034.Drink- depending on what I'm craving for
035.Body part not on the face- heh i don't know
036.Cartoon- Scooby Doo,Ppg,SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS
037.Favourite piece of clothing- A LOT
038.Favourite brand- used to be a very very materialistic person, but now OK luh
039.What do you sleep with?-my bolster and my pillow and my quilt
040.Favourite fruits- APPLE,ORANGE, grape, peach, banana,HONEYDEW
041.Favourite animal(s)- dogs,cats,hamsters,DOLPHINS
042.Favourite book- THE BIBLE (:
043.Favourite magazine-Teenage, Teens, 8-days, Seventeen, Lime, HOPE EXTREME
044.Eating- Hahas actually I eat a lot, you can check with my friends if you don't believe me
045.I am drinking- plain water currently
046.I am about to- trying to figure out how to finish this in a faster rate
047.Listening to -How Great Thou Art
048.Waiting for - HAHAS TO FINISH THIS OF COURSE
049.Watching- not watching anything now
050.Want kids?-maybe 2 or 3
051.want to get married-HAHAS YUPP, BEFORE 29
052.Careers in mind- Hmm, quite a few, but leave it to God luh. How about missionary?
053.Lips or eyes-CAN I CHOOSE BOTH ?!
054.Hugs or kisses- it depends who is the other person, hahas
055.Romantic or spontaneous- ROMANTIC
056.Nice stomach or nice arms- how about BOTH?!
057.Sensitive or Loud- hahas I think I am caught in the middle
058.Sweet or caring- BOTH
059.He's a troublemaker or hesistant?- Hmm how about in the middle? I dont know luh
060.Kissed a stranger- NO NO NO
061.Drank bubbles- is Bubble tea counted? hahas no luh
062.Glasses or contacts-Contacts next year, not sure as well, but now a pair of glasses is still good for me
063.Ran away from home- really wanna last time, esp during p5/6, but after GOD REALLY TOUCHED ME, I DECIDED TO REMAIN FAITHFUL TO HIM !!!
064.Broken a bone- NO&DONT WANT TO
065.Got an x-ray-yah
066.Broken someone's heart-yep,that person was so sad and sent me an sms to tell me
067.Turned someone down- yepp, awww, dont talk about it luh
068.Cried when someone died- I recalled I cried in Sec 1 because I saw a turtle being burnt to death, dont believe can ask Celine
069.Cried at school-yes

Do you believe in?

070.God?- YES YES YES , I AM LIVING FOR JESUS !
071.Miracles- YEPYEPYEP, COS GOD IS A GOD OF MIRACLES,SAVIOUR, HE IS MIGHTY TO SAVE!!!
072.Love at first sight-hahas yahh
073.Aliens- Hmm, no
074.Magic- Hmm, no idea
075.Heaven- OF COURSE, COS THAT'S WHERE JESUS IS GOING TO STAND IN FRONT OF ME
076.Santa claus- Hahas when I was young
077.Sex on the first date- NONONO
078.Kissing on the first date-AHYO NONONO
079.Angels-OF COURSE

Answer truthfully

080.Is there someone you wish to be with right now?- GOD, hahas cos I am going to be in a better place !
081.How does the world see me?- why not you try asking the world then
082.Will I have a happy life?-Hmm, I decided to hand my life to GOD
083.What do my friends really think of me?- Hmm, you gotta ask them hahas
084.Do people secretly lust after me?- Hmm, I dont think so, that can be pretty scary though
085.How can you be happy?-Worshipping and Praising God!!!
086.What should I do with my life- Surrender it to God, Romans 12:1-2,6:12-13
087.Why must life be so full of pain?- cos God is trying to produce the Fruits of the Spirit,no matter what happens God is always with you
088.Will I ever have children?-Hahas, ask God luh
089.Will I die happy?- Hahas but I know where I would go after I die, I would go to a better place !
090.What is some good advice for me?- reading the Word of God
091.What is my happiness?- Living a life which is commited to God
092.What is my favourite fetish?-clothes, bags, shoes, accessories
093.How will I be rememberd?- autographs books, pictures, uh dont know
094.What is your love life like?- hahas
095.What is your life motto?- To live a child in awe of Him, to place my life in His hands !
096.What do your parents think of you?- you have to ask them yourself hahas
097.What's your favourite hobby?-loads of them, chatting,reading, listening to music,praising&worshipping God
098.What does your best friend think of you?- hahas one says that i am DUMB, the other hmm, says that i am NIANG and the last one says that i am CRAZY hurhurhurs.
099.What is the worst thing about you?-can be a bit overly enthu and crazy
100.Describe your mind- HUHS
101.How will you die?- HAHAS DONT KNOW, BUT I KNOW I AM GOING TO A BETTER PLACE AFTER I DIE
102.How does your crush feel about you?-hahas you have to ask my crush luh, like I have one like that. hahas
103.What is your wedding going to be like?-CHURCH & BEACH WEDDING, how about a underwater one ?! hahas ahya let's wait until someone proposed to me first.Hahahahahahas
104.What about your honeymoon?-Australia,Japan,London, Paris,Vienna,Spain, Germany
105.Describe the last day of your life-HUHS
106.Why does life suck?- Hmm last time, but not now , cos now I live a life with GOD
107.Why does life rule?- I am living a life with GOD, as my Saviour and my Lord
108.What will you be famous for ?- Hmm , dont know
109.What's the craziest thing you will ever do?-Hmm , I have no idea
110.Will you achieve your goals?-with God everything is possible, so yupps
111.What will your future job be?-hopefully a job which I enjoy not a job which i treat it more like a chore
112.Your party life- FABULOUS & GORGEOUS
113.Overall will you be happy?- hmm, i guess so.
114.Or will you just deal with unhappiness?- SUBMIT THEM UP TO GOD !!!
115.Lipgloss or makeup- HOW ABOUT BOTH?!
116.Name what you will do if you won $3000000000 dollars- give my tithe and offering cos I can never outgive God , save some, give some to my parents, donate , shopping

FINALLY I'M DONE WITH THIS QUIZ, HAHAS

PEOPLE, NOW IT'S TIME TO SABO PEOPLE TO DO THE QUIZ.

1.CRAZY SISTER
2.DEBS (OPTIONAL IF YOU WANT IT TO BE AFTER O'S A NOT )
3.DREEY ( AFTER A'S)
4.FRAN
5.MEL
6.SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7.RENEE MY W-------L SNR
8.VERAAAAAA
9.SHIANY

088.

2006-09-27T12:23:00.000-07:00

Wow, I finally decided to do the quizzes that are long overdue ! First one was tagged by MISS SHOW !!!
Rules : express your love for seven & get others to know more about you ! copy& paste the following on your own blog and complete all 7 bullets of all 7 questions. Pass it on to 7 people and have fun !

Gosh this was long overdue by 4 months!

Seven things that make me smile:
1. reading the WORD OF GOD !!! God never fails to cheer me up
2. talking to God
3. more people to be SAVED cos when one is saved the whole household will be saved !
4. my parents and brother to be commited
5.getting good results
6.buying more stuff
7. learning how to sew nice bags and stuff from SUPERDREY !

Seven ways to win my heart :
Firstly, why must win my heart ?! HURHURHURS ... but anyway I still have to carry on with the quiz.

1. play my favourite song on guitar
2. sing for me
3. SURPRISE me
4. cook for me
5. make me smile
( ahh i am runnning out of points )
6. be intelligent and not do weird things like bringing me to a movie but expect me to pay the money
7. must buy me fabulous gifts

1 thing I believe in : (sorry Show, I can't think of 7 , so many)
1. GOD

Seven things I do everyday:
1. QUIET TIME
2. breathe
3. eat
4. drink
5. talk
6. messaging
7.listening to songs

Seven people I want to see now:
Hahas the list can go on and on ! I gonna put nicknames cos if they are reading this, they should know who they are ! HAHAS !!!

1. Fran
2. Mrs Dumbie
3. RENEE MY WONDERFUL DARLING SNR
4. GRAPE RAISIN MILK
5. SUPERDREY
6. DEBS
7. VERAAAA!!!

Seven people who i tagged to do this:
1. Mrs Dumbie
2. RENEE MY WONDERUFL DARLING
3.DREEY
4.DEBS
5.MISS KUAN nell nell
6. Fran
7.MY CRAZY SISTER !!!

2006-09-27T00:58:00.000-07:00

Another quiz ...

" This is for those who are tagged by me. This is what you have to do , so enjoy if you have been tagged, you are to come up with seven qualities of your perfect lover, do specify the gender, then list down and tag another seven bloggers, if you have been tagged, you need not do this again ! "

Gosh, whoever who made me do this, I am going to hunt that person down and murder that person though this is also a long time overdue quiz that I have to do. The quiz is so contradicting cos what I want to do now in my life is to focus on Him !!!

Male

1. Christian
2. Love God more than me
3. Stand firm in his spiritual walk with Him
4. must be more spritually matured
5. must be able to understand me well and CLICK well too
6. must be good-looking HAHAS
7. must be SPORTY

People tagged to do this:
ahya I dont wanna sabo people luh but too bad this is part of the quiz... so

1. Celine
2. Fran
3. Miss KUAN nell nell
4. MEI-BIENG
5. JL
6. DEBS
7.DREEY

2006-09-18T15:48:00.000-07:00

Heyys, it's been a long time since I last blogged! Gosh, cant believe that exams are coming really soon ! Anyways, thank you Shixuan, Ruyi, Celine, Brenda ,Derede and Melanie for helping me with the art design and modification ! Thanks a lot !!! Got to go now before mum started nagging !

2006-09-05T23:48:00.000-07:00

Hey, it has been a long time since I ever updated. Teachers' day at crescent was ok, the captain's ball was fun, everyone were cheering. Went back to rv after that, even rv is singing HSM's songs.Went to meet the rest at Charlotte's house, Her house is very near my church. My parents have gone a little overboard this time round by their week by week access stuff. I mean this is totally crazy, spending time in the House of God is more important luh.

2006-08-26T23:49:00.000-07:00

Hey, today's service was great. I was very emotional during altar call, could just feel His presence so intensely ! Anyway this post is dedicated to DEBS & DREEY !!! HEY YOU BOTH SHOULD FEEL VERY HONOURED LORH AS YOU ARE READING THIS POST ! Hahas anyway thks DEBS for being there to really listen to me talk for more than 1 hour on the phone & thks DREEY to be super nice to send me to the bus-stop and to give me advices and words of encouragements. Anyways thks for those hugs that both had given me ! Thank God for such lovely sisters ! Hahas Debs just called me to ask about the thingy and I gotta meet her tomorrow at Clementi Mrt to collect some stuff from her. Gosh , I maybe cutting down on the number of times I blog, maybe going on hiatus, not so sure yet, depending on my mood. Hahas heard that I4C gonna play Captain's ball on saturday, we have to bring clothes to change as we are going to meet at 9 am to play Captain's ball and we gonna go straight for service after that. Anyway I guess I'm feeling much more better now. God is faithful, He is just and He is fair. Everything that you are going through is what God has planned out for you, to mould you and to prepare you to do His good works in advance ! Thank God ! He spoke to me on Thursday and I was so touched by what He has said.

2006-08-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

This week has been a roller-coaster. My mood has been up and down these few days. Had chinese compo today and the question is asking us to write about how we feel towards secondary school students having relationship at this age. Hahas ! & to our astonishment, we had a great shock where we find out that that was the exact same question for the people who study chinese and took oral today. Anyway, speaking about oral, the reading was ok BUT the conversational part killed me ! The question was " bao zhang bao dao ..." when these four words came out I was totally stunned. I am like " HUH !!! " then the teacher carried on. & my reaction was like " OH MY GOSH , HOWHOWHOW !!!" but luckily I managed to catch what the teacher is trying to say as she speaks very fast. Science common test is a screwed-up test . Gosh, should have controlled my appetite on that day. WOW today as I got out of school , I saw a shocking sight, shan't elaborate too much on that.

Something interesting happen on thursday. I had been badmooding for the whole morning and the afternoon. However God is so good. He never fails to cheer me up when I'm down. He never fails to turn not so good situations to good situations. I just want to thank Him and praise Him in every situation that He put me through. This is what He said to me that afternoon.

He created me for a purpose cos I'm a part of His beautiful workmanship, to be created in his kingdom and family to do good works, which He prepared me to do in advance. Do not be condemned by the world, by wordly desires but by His WORD.

Isn't is amazing , I was badmooding the whole day and God's words just lifted me up ! Replace my thoughts with things that pleases God ! Hand things up to Him & He will help you ! Thanks DEBS for ur wonderful smses and tags. They are just so SWEET & they really gave me loads of encouragement !

God gave me a vision that day. It was during dinner after cell gp, then I saw my parents and they said that they are going for service !!! I mean WOW, that's totally so cool ! I was crying out to God the other day , thinking about why my parents aren't commited, why can't they be hot lukewarm hearted Christians, but He cheered me up and encouraged me by giving me this vision. Then I started thinking about the thing which really saddened me that day, but before I could say anything , hahas God told me , as long as I've tried my best. He is going to do the rest. Worrying is not the assurance that God has given me but peace and hope is what He assures me ! Not only now, but for eternity. As long as I hand up to Him, put my trust in Him, trust Him with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind. He is definitely going to do something.

TAG REPLIES :

*debra- YEAH THKS DEAR FOR THAT NICE SWEET TALK THAT WE HAD, THKS FOR SPENDING MORE THAN ONE HOUR OF YOUR TIME TO LISTEN ! ALL THE BEST FOR UR PRELIMS ! JIAYOU DEBS !!!

janell - HEY !!! hmm u wanna join me one saturday !!! It's gonna be really cool & fun !!!

2006-08-21T07:15:00.000-07:00

Hey, today was quite ok. Haven't been updating for quite sometime. Thank you Alex for praying for my parents and my grades ! Screwed the isometric drawing part of D&T. Went Cheers to buy stuff with Mayvin and we took bus together. Gosh, I had great fun laughing throughout the bus ride cos this aunty boarded the bus and switched on her phone and started playing this oldie chinese song. Then I was laughing throughout the whole journey. Oh yeah , today was a crazy day as well. I wasnt being myself for the whole day. Hahas Celine can tell that , so she beared with my insane stuff.

2006-08-14T20:55:00.000-07:00

Hey, today was kinda a mood swing day for me after common test. Maths question 6 & the last part question was kinda screwed. Stumbled upon even more disappointing stuff, nothing to do with school luh. Took bus home and the worst part was when I reached home, in front of the door, I suddenly realised that I forgot to bring my keys. I left them inside the bag which I brought to church on saturday. Ryan had lessons until 6pm, my mum's going to aunt's place and my dad is in the office. Called mum and dad up and guess what's her response " huh, mum's in meeting right now ! Meanwhile you try to settle yourself. Bye " & guess what my dad says "Hahahahahahahahahas !!! Good luck then ! " WHAT!!!!!!!!!! Aunty Joy offered to let me stay over at her place for the afternoon but I dont wanna disturb them so I decided to travel from my house to my aunt's place.

2006-08-12T07:35:00.000-07:00

Hey, service was great as usual ! Hahas icebreaker was super funny ! I have to chase after people and I was the first one to chase around ! Oh hahas Pastor said something super funny luh, he was saying hmm then nvm, so everyone told him to say, and he replied that he was kinda worried if he said it out. He was asking us " Have you ever wondered who you are going to marry next time ?" then super funny luh. Everyone started laughing like crazy. Then he carried on " hmm actually some people can choose , they have a few choices. However some of them have only one choice. Then he carried on" sometimes , you will wonder , how ah God , which one should I choose, got 3 girls somemore leh " Hahas at that point of time, Celine and I were laughing hilariously. Oh btw, my ears are much more better now ! Thank God and Praise Him ! Thank you for the people who prayed for me ! Thanks a lot !

2006-08-11T18:00:00.000-07:00

Hey thank you really much to the people who prayed for my earholes. Thank you very much Janell, Celine , church friends ! In case you do not know what happened, it has been a month already since I pierced my ears and I tried to take them out and put in new ear studs. However the left one started bleeding but the right one was alright. I decided to either go back to Goldheart on tues or wed to let them have a look or to wait for a week and see if I can put the new earring properly into the left one this time without bleeding. I realise that even small little things like taking out my earrings and changing them for the first time, I have to ask God for directions. If you do things according to God's way, you will live according to His guidance. I am sorry Lord for not asking you for guidance. Without Your guidance, I would be finished. God, I just wanna hand up these fears and worries to You ! All up to You, I will submit them all up to You ! Worry is not the assurance that You have given me but Hope and Peace is the assurance that You have given me ! Phil 4:6-7 ! If Jesus can endure the pain and the whips and even lay down His life to die on the cross for me, He did not even complain at all. Why do I have to be so gan cheong about my earholes ?! Gosh, this is a self-reflection post ! I am sure God will do something about it ! I called, You answered and You came to my rescue !!! If this is the thing planned out in God's will, I will lived according to His will ! He is my all and everything to me ! Amen !

2006-08-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

Recaps-

Had national day celebration today. Firstly, we had to learn some kind of dance in the hall. Then, we went to the canteen for some refreshments. G3 started playing bombs so the whole canteen started " bombing" here and there. Went back to the hall and we had performance put up by the band, 3 dance items, 3 rounds of singing and teacher's performance. We were super high during the singing luh. We started screaming and shouting, stacking up our flags. After the celebration, went to have lunch with Ruyi and Shixuan at j8. Did some shopping. Then took a train to town, hahas it was super funny. I ended up making many calls at Orchard mrt.

2006-08-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hey, had Science common test today. The last two questions were kinda screwed. Stayed back for PBL until 4.30. Bernice and I were running here and there , to and fro , from Monet Lab to TA office. Gosh ,we bought a total of 3 cds excluding the previous one that was given to us. Collected the chocolate fudge cake today. I'm so sad just now ok. Super sad . Mum doesnt allow me to go for mission trip. I explained to her nicely and she said NO . I asked her for a valid reason and she told me that I am only sec 2. COME ON LUH, "ONLY" SEC 2 ! I AM GOING TO BE 14 YEARS OLD SOON AND BY THE TIME I GO FOR MISSION TRIP, I AM ALREADY 14 . She always gives me excuses why she does not want to go for service cos she's busy. She always says that she doesnt have enough time to go to church and stuff like that. I mean she's totally not commited at all. & my brother is even worse, he says that he doesn't see a difference in not going to church.

However , I felt so encouraged now. A friend once told me , there's absolutely and simpy no time for discouragement. I gonna shine His light even in the darkest place ! NOTHING CAN SEPARATE ME FROM HIS LOVE ! NOT EVEN WHAT MY PARENTS SAY, NOT EVEN WHAT MY BROTHER SAYS , ABSOLUTELY NOTHING !!!

My brother came into the room just now, to give me a lecture on why am I updating my blog. Thank God , my mum said that it's ok ! & instead she lectured my brother for being too harsh on me ! Thank Him & Praise Him !

I'll go for You
Nothing will stand in my way

2006-08-04T02:06:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I was kind very crappy in one of the smses that i sent Celine. Gosh ! orange is influencing me to be crappy . Was super guai today. Went home straight after class. Was not in the mood to study. Called Celine up and talked to her on the phone for quite some time. Ryan came back and started lecturing me. I simpy ignored him. I actually forgot to take back my camera from the com lab, left it on the table but luckily thank you Xing Juan for taking my cam back to class. Thanks a lot ! Can't wait for tomorrow. I'm presenting the song tomorrow. I gonna sing solo in front of I4C. I need my honey drink !

2006-08-02T21:17:00.000-07:00

Haven't been updating for quite some while.

Recaps

Monday- Had history common test. Gosh, i wrote crap for the first source based question. Thank God I managed to finish the paper in time.

Tuesday- Had maths test. Mr Choy came in and said that we have to watch our time because we may not be able to finish the paper. Indeed, I guess a lot of people didn't finish the paper. I left out the second question and some parts of the last question.

Today- Went to study at Orchard Library with Celine. Had mos burger for lunch. Then went to popular to buy a file. After that, walked to Heeren to get some stuff. Gosh, I think I am the most dumbest person in the whole wide world. Gosh, shan't elaborate too much on that.

2006-07-29T23:55:00.000-07:00

Hey , yesterday was AAD ! I went to school for the earlier slot cos there was service after that. It was pretty fun though.

2006-07-21T20:57:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh, I gonna do 2 quiz in one entry cos I was tagged. BUT SERIOUSLY I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING THEM NOW LEH. I TOLD SHOW THAT I WILL BE DOING THEM TONIGHT BUT HMM... SO SORRY LUH SHOW ! I WILL DO THEM SOME OTHER TIME.

Anyway, i gonna meet DEBRA for lunch tomorrow. Gosh, she has to leave her house at ten plus. Hahas! We gonna had coffee for lunch tomorrow! My parents went for a wedding dinner. It has been a crazy week ! My phone was screwed , had absolutely no idea why but the phone just switched off by itself and the whole software crashed. Thanks to Ryan who sent my phone to repair and I just collected it from Wheelock today after school. Dad picked me up and we rushed down to Wheelock. Watched Pirates of the Carribean 2 this week. I found out something interesting. Dad is still a Christian. It's just that he isn't commited and does not want to go church. Mum isn't going church because of her busy schedule but she promised me that she will go back one day. I was so encouraged in a way knowing that my dad especially, is still a Christian. My dad actually remembered several verses inside the Bible and he can even memorise them. Anyway , stayed back yesterday to help out with the board and today with the speech day's decoration. Anyway, I kana attacked these days!!! Hahas so funny lor ! Head, nose, somewhere round my stomach and face and being poked ! Hahas it was fun though !

I gonna shine Your light in the darkest place !

2006-07-19T22:05:00.000-07:00

This few days had been interesting. God never fails to cheer me up whenever I am down, He never fails to encourage me whenever I am discouraged. Anyway,recaps on what happened these few days.

Recaps

TUESDAY- Had " getting to know you" session with Mrs Wong. It was fun anyway. Oh by the way,Huang Chee Yang came to my school for some survey things and there are people crowding around him, busy snapping photos.

WEDNESDAY- Lessons were ok. Gosh I am super tired. Will update on friday.

2006-07-14T23:43:00.000-07:00

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WEDNESDAY- Went to eat BK near Wheelock with Ho Zi Ying. The both of us went to daily scoop after that. Had ginger crumble and tiramisu. Had fever. I was praying and praise God , I became better after that.

THURSDAY- I dropped my tablet. So sad ! Gosh ! Went to download fun with construction and had lunch with Celine and took 195 home. Was so bored at the bus-stop but someone called me up so I started talking on the phone.

FRIDAY- Became a bit crazy just before CS lesson starts. Had oral after school. It is indescribable. Anyway, the reading was ok, the picture was rather screwed and the conversation was not bad. We ended earlier than expected.

SATURDAY- SERVICE WAS GREAT ! ME AND CELINE STARTED TAKING PHOTOS OF THE BEAUTIFUL SKY AND OURSELVES.

God, I just wanna thank You and praise You for everything that You have done. In Jesus's name , Amen !

2006-07-10T22:14:00.000-07:00

Hey, school's been fine today. Just that CHEE CHEONG FUN is so ahem. INDESCRIBABLE! I can't believe that he is teaching us for the rest of the year. There is maths test tomorrow and I gotta sleep early. As I was doing my quiet time , God was telling me to get serious in my studies. He was telling me to be serious in it. I admit that my mid yrs were rather screwed and horrible. Mum was encouraging me that day. She was telling me that if I do well for CA, I get to go overseas in the Sept holidays though it is only a week.

God, I just wanna do it all for You !
With God, all things are POSSIBLE !

2006-07-09T00:22:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh, it's super late now and i donno what am I doing online for. Anyway, service was great as usual. Oh btw, someone just told me something which is super traumatising. I mean no luh I wasnt traumatised but I ended laughing hilariously. And somemore it was over the phone. Hahas. Dui Bu Qi ah , Debra for ahem provoking you during dinner. Super dui bu qi. Yeah I know I owe you your M&Ns! Anyway, I realised that I like eating BK a lot though. Hahas

2006-07-07T22:30:00.000-07:00

This week was awesome ! I can't believe that I have not been blogging for a week though.

Recaps

MONDAY- YOUTH DAY !!!
Went to plaza sing with art group to take photos. Comic connection was the only shop which was so nice to allow us to take photos there. After taking photos, went to catch " Just My Luck" with Ruyi, Shixuan and Carynn.

TUESDAY- "POPULAR DAY"
Went to buy stationery and stuff at popular. Gosh, spent quite some bucks on just pens and notebooks.

WEDENSDAY- Went to have lunch with Celine at tiong. Ate the egg crepe with pork floss and the chicken.

THURSDAY- Had meeting till 5 pm. I was competing with Show for the medidating competition and I started laughing hilariously somehow for no reason. I was cracking so many jokes with Show. Show was asking me" Why are you laughing?" And I joked with her that it was some kind of de-stressing-yourself thing. Had lunch with Cuiting, Show, Laura and Swee Chen. I was telling them that there is this teacher who looks like one of the guys in 2moro. Miss Seow didnt come so we had free period for english. I was playing this sniff sniff thing on Laura. I was like aiming to say sniff sniff to Laura for a hundred or a thousand times. Hahas but in the end , of course I wasnt so crazy to say sniff sniff for a thousand times.

FRIDAY- Slept for 5 hours the previous night. Thank You Swee Chen for helping me out with the flash replay button! School ended off early. We were dismissed at 12 pm. Cui Ting and I went to buy the decorating materials at j8. Went to have my earholes at Goldheart. Was rather nervous at first. Hahas. Thank You Cui Ting for accompanying me to Goldheart ! Thank you so much for those encouragements ! Had lunch with her before going to Goldheart, went to long john as other places were crowded. After piercing my ears, went to Theresa Ville to join Hannah, Hazel, Xin Shyan and the rest for the fellowship that they had. The games were interesting ! Went home after that .

2006-06-30T07:27:00.000-07:00

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Yesterday-
Had role play for CME. I was laughing throughout the whole play as it was super funny. Melanie was the person making the sound effects. Ryan flew off to Thailand already. Had D&T today. I can’t imagine that Mr Ho still keeps our files since last year. Besides that Mr Ho still can recognize our faces. Even at the beginning of this year, when I said “Hello” to him, he could still remember that I am from s3. Haha and he is still ah-ing in his lessons. I was counting how many Ahs he said when he was teaching. He had said a total of more than 40 ahs, if I am not wrong it should be more than 45. I lost count already cos halfway through the lesson, I was too sian to write down how many ahs he said already. Laura and I were bored in the lesson and we started playing tic tac toes. At first, we don’t have paper. So we drew on Laura’s book using whiteboard markers. Laura became my “shi fu” as she taught me the ART of playing tic tac toes. She taught me the trick. Went to Queensway. Thank you Celine for accompanying me there and Mayvin for telling us how to go there! Thanks a lot! Oh by the way, Queensway toilet is like -_-. They made us pay 10 cents for tissue and after Celine put the 10 cent coin in, nothing came out. Then I began banging the machine but still nothing came out.

Today-
Had Youth Day celebration today. I was laughing hilariously and cheering throughout the whole concert. Firstly we had the teachers’ band and Mr Lim singing. He sang “ Shanghai (tan)” and “ yue liang dai biao wo de xin”. Then we had “tanglin idol” after that there was this item performed by the mother tongue department. The items were super funny.

2006-06-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

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Saturday – Celine joined me for church. Youth alive came and we were super high luh. The whole church is so high. Anyway hahas many funny things happen. I was laughing like some kind of tom dick and harry when I see Zi jian and Eugene doing the ole ole ole thing. They are seriously into soccer and they are so high. Then Eugene was trying to explain to Celine that they are not so high normally. Hahas. The whole scenario was super hilarious.

Monday- school reopens. We had a new math teacher. Mrs low crossed over to the physics department. She will be teaching purely physics I guess. Hmm… our new teacher is MR CHOY chee chong. Hahas he is super funny lorh. The moment he stepped in, he explained why he was late because he wasn’t familiar with the classes. He teaches science too. Oh by the way, Mr John is not teaching us science anymore. Hmm… no more funny jokes in class though. Mr teo always makes me laugh in class. Gosh, my mum is driving me nuts. I was thinking of going against her, seriously I once thought of that but as I was reading the word of God . I came across this verse “Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.” Col 3:20
I trust that He will give me the strength as I can do everything through Him who gives me strength. I just want to hand this up fully to Him. He knows the best for me. Like what pastor Daniel says, there is always an escape hatch.
Anyway, went to plaza sing for lunch. Actually wanted to eat kimchi but it’s too crowded , so went to eat mee sua instead and shared the chicken with Celine. Oh by the way, we had spot check today.

Today- Miss Azrina is our new science teacher. Miss Seow is not our form teacher anymore. I don't know why but I just feel personally that something isn't that right though. Went to have lunch at tiong with Celine and Brenda. Made a phone call accidentally. Hahas it was super funny. Then I was thinking hmm did I accidentally click the call button or is it the person calling me up. Hahas let me tell you, it was ridiculously lame . I spent 40 seconds clarifying and analyzing it. GOSH! Anyway, bought a belt from chameleon and decided to wear it on sat. Hahas during our walk to the mrt station, we were giggling and laughing non stop. OH yah, today when Mr CHOY stepped into the class, I cant help but laugh uncontrollably and even Melanie realizes it and I was telling Melanie that I have been laughing ever since he stepped into class. Anyway, Miss Nadia is back as the school cant find a relief teacher. After the end of July, she is going to NUS to study law. Gosh, my hand hurts though.

Hold me in Your arms, never let me go, I wanna spend eternity with You. I wanna be with You, I wanna be with You !